Is it normal to be in love with your aunt?
When I was a child, I spent a lot of time at my grandparents' (mom's parents') home as both my parents have full time jobs. My aunt lived there too and at that time she wasn't working. So I would spend my days with her, talking to her, playing with her.
We've been fond of each other ever since I can remember. During my adolescence I was sexually attracted to her and although I would secretly pleasure myself fantasizing about her, I knew full well that I could never act on my forbidden desires for her in real life. I was so torn the day she got married. I was despondent.
I thought it's just a phase and this feeling would attenuate as I come of age. Now I am an adult in my late 20s and my attraction towards my aunt is as strong as ever. Countless nights have I let my mind run amok imagining doing things to her that society does not allow. It's not just lust; I want to be with her, live together, marry her. But I can't. I have been in relationships but I could never love any other women like I love my aunt. What do I do?