Is it normal to be in love but not want to be with the person?
I've been in a abusive long distance relationship past one and half year, which led me into depression. Eventually though my boyfriend left me because of my depression saying I was a burden on him. However even after we broke up he said he do give us try once I was better. Me being in love with him agreed at once. Past four months he's been controlling my life with very little to say no love and care from his end only orders. Recently I lost my patience and questioned him that if he controlled my life caz he loved me why didn't he ever fever losing me or express any emotions even unconsciously,this pissed him off and he has broken all contact with me.
Earlier this would make me cry and be depressed but today it doesn't make a difference I'm used to this loneliness and useless feeling.
I love him but I don't feel like being with him caz he do only hurt me. I dunno what is this ironical feeling. It's confusing me.