Is it normal to be forever alone?
Is it normal to be Forever alone? I am in my early twenties and have never been in a relationship or kissed a girl LOL It is pathetic. I don't think I am that bad looking, I have scars from acne and a borked nose but I am VERY healthy and fit I'm about 6 ft tall and wiegh just over 160 lbs I've tried to beef up more cus it seems girls like bigger guys. Somehow I land in the middle and can get no ones interest.
I speak pretty normally and do my best to act normally although I have suffered in the past from soxial anxiety, still a mild problem.
Whatsmore I have no friends, I haven't had any since I was 14. I don't know whether it's this internet societies fault or my own or the shitty place I live. I know in my heart if I'd grown up somewhere better I would have been a success.
It causes me distress wondering wtf is wrong with me etc. I know now ofc that is a nub move. Positive thinking leads to success but TBH I've tried it all! And I am getting hell I’ve long gotten to the end of my tether. WTF can I do? I know the old saying from Scarface is probably what rings true: First you get the money, then you get the power, then you get the women. But come on I haven't even had one goddam kiss from someone around my age.
Yes I'm a fucking failure @ life. Thing is I don't even try anymore I used to, but after a while you think wtf is the point? Then again everything conflicts in this world. Hard work= success, not always... There are some proper scumbags in this world who have achieved riches fame and hareems of women. What does an honest Joe like me get? Fuck all. Ok I have a comfortable enough life, live in a safe area, but what is that without someone to share it with? I don't have much if any money perhaps this is the problem. Are all women materialistic money grabbing whores? Or just the pretty ones right. I have some standards it's true, but it's been almost 7 years since any female (I like) has shown interest in me. In school I had quite a few girls who showed interest, although I never made a move... not because of shyness but because I used to have a superiority complex, thought I was better than everyone, because I didn't drink, didn't smoke, didn't fornicate and trained hard. I was arrogant and ignorant, and I was severely punished for it (here I am now forever alone) but it's been soooo long since then, I always think to myself is my pennance not over? May sound crazy to you but put yourself in my shoes, no friends for 9 years and no girlfriend in.. ever.
I keep myself clean, wash, hardly drink, don't do drugs, don't smoke, excersice, try to take care of myself as my body is a temple, but still.
The worst thing about all this is now I am so socially out of practice how can I EVER hope to be in a relationship. Where I work I regularly communicate with people and have no problems at all, as I released if you stop thinking of yourself and think of the other persons needs that works much better, helped a lot with my social anxiety.