Is it normal to be depressed yet have high self esteem?

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I feel an absence of motivation or pleasure in things yet I cannot relate to depressed people at all. Most people who are depressed I hear them make self loathing complaints and put themselves down. Honestly that sort of thinking even disgusts me. I dont think anything badly about myself because I am smart enough to realize that the problem is our society and that we live on a dystopian planet. I have felt suicidal frequently but not because I feel negatively about myself, but because I just dont enjoy being here and I hate our society and also just out of bordom. Its more like I think of suicide as a backup plan if all else fails, but I would never tell anyone in real life because I think even if I wanted to they would have the stereotypical impression that I am seeking attention. I honestly just no longer feel that the world deserves all I have to offer. I used to feel like putting all my effort into saving the world but I have a hard time caring about a world that failed me.

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Based on 45 votes (29 yes)
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  • DADNSCAL
    11 years ago

    The most creative rationalization for suicide I've ever read. Your dislike for depressed people is you not wanting to look at yourself in the mirror. I sometimes challenge suicidal clients with this question: what message would your death say to the world? You seem to have answered it already. You're unhappy and under appreciated.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      I am curious to ask you some questions since you talk as if you are a mental health professional. Often when I discuss my feelings online people tell me to "seek help" which I already do but I question if it has ever done me any good. Im currently on 4 differant meds and have been on probablly over 20 but all they really do for me is mask the symptoms. I doubt many people in my life even realize how miserable I feel. How do most people anwser your question? I know people ask "why" people commit suicide. I honestly wonder why most people don't. I don't even have it that bad and I am baffled as to why most people want to be here at all. I don't hate all depressed people, but I hate self loathing people who wallow in their own shit all day because those sorts don't ever try and are mostly too cowardly to stand up for what they believe in. The only think that keeps me going everyday is so I can stand up for what I believe in. You are correct that I have been under appreciated and you may wonder what I do that should be appreciated but thats a whole other topic. I do everything I can to help only to be paid back in f--- you's. Its no wonder I am starting to not care, yet I continue to struggle to care. I just feel done and have felt that way for a very long time, yet I keep myself going anyways wondering to myself, why? I asked a similar question here on IIN a while back where I asked if it was normal to feel my life would eventually end in suicide. They sent me a personal email saying it was denied due to the sensitivity of the topic and told me to call the suicide hotline. I find that to be useless advice however because I cannot imagine them telling me anything I don't already know, but in a way I was curious about what a professional would think so I wrote a detailed letter (about 3 pages) to a suicide prevention website. They never responded. I'm guessing they had nothing they could say to me. You may think I am rejecting help before it can be given but the thing is, is that I have already though of everything. I'm very intelligent and logical and if there is advice for me I probablly already thought around it. Nonetheless I am still intrested to hear what other people may have to say about my thoughts on life. I do like to philosophise with others but this isn't a topic I can philosophise with anyone I know in real life.

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  • MilleBornes
    11 years ago

    Having self-esteem is one thing. You also, as a human have that need to express it. If you can't then it means nothing, instantly called depression. I understand your feelings except suicide NEVER an option. To me, it's such a bitch move. I don't condone it, but if a suicidal person person was near me, I'd push him/her up to do so. Why? because the mere thought of it is stupid and yes, we need lots of stupid people out of the way.

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  • keru
    7 years ago

    You guys, this is a common rare nihilist. I'll keep you safe in my treasure box.

    Don't worry I'll take you out for walks and feed you.

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  • DavidS.
    11 years ago

    oh ok..yeah the world is defintely a frightening place i agree with you on that...with alot of negativity but i do believe you have the power to create a life you can be hapy with even here.

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  • DavidS.
    11 years ago

    well if your so smart why cant you create a life you can be happy with...i think you do have low self esteem but your snarky attitude prevents you from really seeing it...oh by the way i am not criticizing you...i appreciate your honesty..just hoping maybe to get you to look at something that hopefully if you change you could be happier..what is dystoplan planet..i guess ill google it

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    Bi polar, weird, psychopath.

    Pick one and shut your mouth hole from making noiseys.

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  • NormalIsOverratedBeANinja
    11 years ago

    You sound more pessimistic than depressed to me.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      I don't think I am pessimistic. Actually I think part of my problem is I can be to optimistic and then get disappointed when things didn't turn out the way I expected.

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  • DubstepismyMJ
    11 years ago

    Saving the world huh? From what? how do you plan to accomplish that? How old are you? Thats high a task, and impossible task. As righteous as your task is, such a feat will only leave you in many disappointments. You cant make everyone happy. Its no wonder your depress... Stop trying to save the whole world if you cant handle the negative stuff that comes with it. Not everyone will like you either, which makes the task even harder.

    The world didn't fail you, you just expected to much of it. Lower your expectation, trying to make someone happy wont always be reciprocated.

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  • Short4Words
    11 years ago

    The world will always fail you but God won't.

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