Is it normal to be confused about what my heart desperatly yearns
I am exclusively dating 2 guys. One I've been on and off for years and we live together, the other I've been dating for almost 2years. I wanted to move before I met bf2 but I thought the emotional issues and negect would change, it didn't. Bf2 was there for me and I fell in love now I'm sad that I may loose him because I don't want bf1 being hurt so I kept trying to prolong myself hoping if I talk to him and express myself verbally he would try to see things from my point of view but he just keeps feeding me broken promises and putting my girlfried needs in a locked box but everytime I get up the courage to go before I chicken out he bf1 does something I appreciate and I look at it like he's trying and I feel like he deserves a chance then its right back to the same unhappy depression but with bf2 he always had time for me or took me out to do what ever now he wants me tolive together and we take care of each other he loves me he says but I'm so affraid that he lying. I work 2 jobs and live in another state he moved and now he's saying he wants me to move tooo you guys I want to start a new life with this new man I love him but I'm afraid to hurt bf1 at one point I truly loved him but he just doesn't ha e time for me during anydays and nights he just smokes and bf2 is younger he's about to be 24 I just turned 31 but he met my mom and dad and some of my family and I met some of his I'm nervous