Is it normal to be confused about being confused?

Okay let me start from the beginning, I'll try not to bore you... PLEASE read to the bottom, PLEASE.
I suppose you could say that I'm one of those girls who has had her heart broken into a million pieces a couple of times, so she resorts to using her body to feel wanted and loved. Of course I know that none of these guys I talk to actually have feeling for me, but the ones that do don't last long. And I'm okay with it. Id rather be the silent predator, breaking hearts but going unnoticed. BUT, a new guy came along recently. He's a woooonderful person. He'd do anything for you if you asked, without a question. When we first met, I didn't imagine the size of his penis or picture my body against his (at least not until much later...), but I adored his smile and got lost in his eyes. Sappy, I know. Yuck... Lol, but now here I am today. We've been on a couple of dates and I feel like I probably have feelings for the kid, but the question is, do I have feelings for him, or do I just think I do? The only other guy I have ever had real real feelings for, that didn't screw me over completely, lives 323 miles away. I can honestly say that I love him, and I probably always will. Weve spoken on and off for about 3years now, and the last time we stopped talking was very shortly before I met this new guy... I don't know if I actually like this new guy or if I'm just telling myself I do!!!!! I love being around him, but I'm the type of person that can pretend to love being around someone and eventually learn to love it. One of my best friends told me that I've seemed really sad and unlike myself ever since I started this "thing" with new guy.. I'm just confused and I need some good advice.... Am I tricking myself, or do I actually feel the way I think I do? Another thing, if I do decide I don't have feelings for him, the hard part will be saying goodbye, I just can't imagine myself doing it after all of this.... Hes a great person.. Somebody please help me out.