Is it normal to be caring around people but depressed at home?

I can't help but feel like this alot too. I am also happy, goofy, and super supportive with my friends and in public in general. Like you I feel depressed and lonely at home alot. I also have a hard time opening up to even my closest friends. I guess I just want to be 100% sure that my friends care about me to listen to my personal problems. NEVER feel like you aren't good enough to exist. God carefully made you and has a plan for your life. Also suffering creates empathy, which will give you the heart to help others in your position. My advice is to let people in. I know its scary, but I've definitely felt better after I tell people what I'm feeling even if I'm unsure of their reaction. Make good friends that share your values and work little by little to let them into your life. They do care about you. Hope this helps!

that is really normal maybe u just dont really like your family

I feel your pain. My family was divided into three places, my parents lived in country X, my sibling and I in country Y, but different cities. I recently moved in with my brothers and oh how I hated it initially! Hate is actually an understatement, I was suicidal. There was a night when I was so miserable I had to call a crisis help line. You know the worst part- my brothers had no idea what they were putting me through. I am an extremely affable and nice person, even if I say so myself, yet at home I become this defenseless creature who needs to protect herself from the evil that is called family. My brothers make me feel like crap and show no remorse for humiliating me. I am so insignificant for them it hurts more than words can put. Four months of living with them and I wanted to kill my self, my self esteem was down the drain (this coming from someone whose planning med school). They have no idea how they make me feel. The crisis help center suggested I have open articulate conversations with them and confront them over what's causing me so much pain, or perhaps right them a letter. Being the doormat I am, I couldn't sum up the moral courage to do either. I've just grown a thicker skin now, they're still jerks. Communicating is hard enough as it is, throw in age difference, an asshole for a brother and cultural stereotypes, and you've gotten a tongue tied girl who hates coming home and feels bipolar. I've just minimized my interactions with them and plan to move out.

I'm sorry. I don't think I really helped you.

It seems that you are reacting to other people rather than taking the lead.

Love yourself first, and do what makes you happy.

Try to get out the house by exercising more. It will help by both getting you out of the place of depression and by boosting your serotonin levels to help you not be so depressed.

I'm the very same way and I do think its normal because I think almost everyone has a double life around there friends and family. Like a example some kids would acted out and curse around their friends but act all calm and quite around their parents. In your case I guess its the opposite.