Is it normal to be angry about how i've lived the past 3-4 years?

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I'm having a bit of a nostalgic moment looking through my old Facebook messages and I can't help but miss what my life was like 4 or 5 years ago. I'm about to graduate high school now, so 5 years ago I was right in the middle of junior high. It's funny because times back then were tough. I was fairly shy and wasn't great with girls. I can't help but cringe at some of my old messages to be honest. That being said, life just seemed so fresh back then. I was naive and stupid but it made life seem more exciting.

I don't even know if it has anything to do with how life was back then though. I think it might have had something to do with it being before what happened in 9th grade right before high school. I started smoking weed and although it didn't mess me up or anything and I still managed to keep my grades high, I still think it was the biggest mistake of my life so far. I wasted so much fucking time with that shit. That's all weed is. It's not that harmful to your health but damn does it make the time fly by with nothing to show for it. I quit smoking weed about 3 months ago and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. Unfortunately I spent most of my high school years hanging out with boring potheads that don't really do anything, and so I've had to force myself to make new friends just months before high school is about to end. I've been sort of successful but it's difficult because everyone already has their groups of friends by now.

I can't help but be completely pissed off about the way I've spent my high school years. All I did was smoke weed. In grade 10 I went to my first couple parties and that was cool, but other than that I did almost nothing. I barely even remember grade 11 because pretty much nothing significant happened in my life. I've changed more in the past 3 months than I have from grade 10 to grade 12. I've started working out which has been amazing and along with cutting out weed, I've cut out porn which I also think was a good idea. I do drink quite a bit but it really functions more as a social lubricant than anything. I feel better now than I've felt in years but I just can't shake the thought that I wasted what could have been 3 of the most memorable years of my life. I don't believe that high school is the best time in most people's lives but I do believe that it should at least be memorable in some way. I have been able to keep my grades up so I'm going to be studying at a great university next fall. I'm hoping it will be exciting and new like high school because this time I'm not planning to waste my time.

I guess what I want to know is if it's normal that I so strongly despise the way I've lived for the past 3 or 4 years? Am I overreacting and should just be moving on or am I really going to regret my wasted time in 30 years when I look back on high school. I'm looking forwards to next year but I still feel like I spent most of my transition from childhood to adulthood in an unmemorable haze.

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  • ProseAthlete
    10 years ago

    From the perspective of someone who's long graduated from high school, the answer is no. No, you will not utterly regret being kind of a lousy student and smoking a lot of weed in high school. You might feel wistful every once in a great while and idly wish you had been more diligent, but high school is such a small slice of your life that it will recede into insignificance.

    Paradoxically, you may have done yourself a favor. You already know you don't want to waste your time with pointless shit that doesn't move you toward your goals, and that is a great way to start your college career.

    Don't regret your past if you learned something from it. Good luck in school; you are clearly smart as hell and should do wonderfully. :)

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  • suckonthis9
    10 years ago

    There is not a correct 'yes' or 'no' answer.

    It's all part of growing up. Many people go through similar experiences.

    I had known some people who were 'chronic' cannabis users, so I feel that I can relate with you.
    I'm glad that you've learned to moderate these behaviours, as I knew some people who continued these behaviours throughout adulthood. Every person is different, and it affects some people differently, than in others. I also know people who need to, and use it medicinally.

    I also agree with kingofcarrotflowers that alcohol can potentially be more damaging. As long as you are able to moderate your alcohol intake, there should be no problems, unless the good doctor advises otherwise.

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  • Yeeeebro
    10 years ago

    Hi. I accidentally voted No. Yes! It's completely normal. I think things will get better as you start to focus on more present things next year! You've already started those steps

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