Is it normal to be an occasional solvent abuser
I'm a 23 year old male...It's not a regular habit but sometimes , once in a while, lets say 4 times a year, when i'm depressed or really upset about something I binge drink alone, I love a night out getting drunk with my friends but somtimes now and again when I cant face the world, i sit alone on my sofa, drinking vodka wine, cider, anything I can get my hands on, and smoke lots of cigarettes, when all the alcohol & cigs have ran out, I then start solvent abuse, inhaling aerosols through a towel. It leaves me feeling depressed, guilty and foolish. It gives me a disorientated dis-attached feeling , pleasant at first but then an impending sense of doom and slight hallucinations and after then I feel wretched for doing it. Does anyone else do this? I don't do drugs but sometimes when im alone and totally wasted I find myself doing this. I also get the same visions and impending sense of doom every-time I do it, Tonight when I inhaled for the first time in about 5 months I got up out my seat and felt some presence was watching me and laughing. This is really out of character for me, I'm a very sociable bubbly person but i wouldn't tell anyone about this.