Is it normal to be afraid to kiss at 19
So im a girl, 19, and I feel really anxious when I'm in a situation that might end up in kissing, even if I like the guy and I want to kiss him, I just can't. I had one boyfriend and dated a guy, both of them initiated most of the kisses or the intimacy, I just couldn't do it even if I wanted to, then I kissed some guys drunk at parties (it is way easier like that) but for example if I go on a date with a guy that I like and I see that the situation is perfect for a kiss I try to avoid it at all costs, I think it would be awkward or embarrasing, but I also feel that if I break that wall (the first kiss) everything would be way easie, iddddddk if its normal or wtf, real anxiety