Is it normal to basically forget a lot of "horrible" things i've done?

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I've done a ton of things that would sicken most people. Shit that really disturbs people. These things would be considered to be extremely wrong, immoral, violent, gory, predatory, just plain FUCKED UP. I forget about doing many of these things just like I forget what shirt I had on last Tuesday. I don't purposely try to forget, it just happens.

You're probably wondering how do I know I forget this stuff if I've forgotten it. Seeing a certain person, place or thing, or possibly a smell, will remind me sometimes. Other times someone who had some knowledge of it will bring it up. I'll have to think about it for a second and then the memory of it comes back but goes back to the back of my mind soon after.

When I get reminded of something I kind of wonder how I could've forgotten that. I don't feel bad about doing these things but I do feel strange that I forget them because other people think things like this are a very big deal. Do I have some kind of problem or is the problem simply that I'm comparing my standards of memory-worthiness to other people's?

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  • RomeoDeMontague
    10 years ago

    So what the hell did you do? Is it anything you should be arrested for? Why are you even telling us?

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  • dirtybirdy
    10 years ago

    Oh is this compartmentalization? I remembered a big word :D

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    • Terence_the_viking
      10 years ago

      Birdy want a cracker?

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      • dirtybirdy
        10 years ago

        Hmm. May I have a piece of lemon poppy pound cake instead please.

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        • Terence_the_viking
          10 years ago

          Sorry you just missed the last slice. :(

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          • dirtybirdy
            10 years ago

            ohh. Then a fire cracker will do. Thank you.

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            • Terence_the_viking
              10 years ago

              Cool i have loads of those.

              *hands over a fire cracker.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      I don't think so since these things don't cause conflict within myself, I just don't see it being a big deal like other people do. I won't say no 100% to compartmentalization but I doubt it. I'd be willing to explore this more if I knew more about it or had guidance from someone.

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  • imadragon
    10 years ago

    It is normal for people who has been traumatized to forget the experience, it's a way for the brain to defend itself from the trauma. This could be something like it. But you should probably talk to someone who is certified in that area.

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  • Vampyra
    10 years ago

    You just may be a "sociopath." If I were you, I'd make an appointment to see a psychiatrist as soon as you can. He or she will help to diagnose your psychiatric disorder, and you will most likely be given medication-probably an antipychotic to calm you. Thanks for reaching out for help. If you continue on this path, you will end up incarcerated or worse. Good luck and thanks for your honesty.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    do you want a medal?

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  • DolphinAngel
    10 years ago

    If I knew what things you did, I'd probably call you something bad...

    Then again, I don't think I'm that much better than you and I could care less...

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      OK.

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  • lotuspetals
    10 years ago

    Examples of horrible things you've done please!!!

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      The fuck? Don't harass me, do you think I spend all day on the internet dutifully replying? I don't find anything horrible myself, but I know how to recognize what MOST people do find disturbing. No real need to outline it for you.

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      • lotuspetals
        10 years ago

        I wasn't harassing you. It looked like my first post didn't post, so I posted again.

        Okay, I get it. The things you may not think are horrible, others do. Now... Could u please-with cherries on top-give an example of something you've done that others might think is horrible?

        When you post here asking if your ordeal is normal or not, I think my question has relevance.

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  • lotuspetals
    10 years ago

    I think it all depends. You say you've done ”horrible” things that would haunt others forever. You need to define what you consider horrible, first. Examples???

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  • MakienzyGirl11
    10 years ago

    As long as you haven't raped or killed someone, you're good in my book

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  • Koda
    10 years ago

    I've forgotten or blocked out crazy shit I've done. A friend was talking to me the other day and brought up this one time a few years ago, and I swear I hadn't thought of it since it happened. But he told me it forever changed how he saw me. I was like whoa, so something I completely forgot happened has shaped the way I'm seen by this dude?

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    So have I, and there's alot worse to come.

    But I don't tend to forget it. Instead I romanticise it internally, actually feeling like I've accomplished something of worth.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      I'd like to ask you a few questions.

      Can you list some of these activities? I'd like to know if we're on the same page.

      Why do you think it is that you value your exploits and I don't? What do you get out of it? Why do you feel it's an accomplishment of worth?

      In general, is getting credit for what you do very important to you?

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      • [Old Memory]
        10 years ago

        There will be no divulging of what I do/did.

        I value them because I'm a loser who can't deal emotionally with other human beings, so I build my inner world a little "better".

        I like getting credit for what I do because I'm an egomaniac of sorts, but a strange, aloof one. I'm somewhat disarming at times.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          10 years ago

          So you do these things as more of an after-effect of your inability to succeed in "real life" and not a base desire?

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          • [Old Memory]
            10 years ago

            No, ofcourse the actions are based on desire, but those are things that go to the grave with me. I'm saying the reason I don't care about those actions AFTERWARDS is because I'm so self focused that I can't see people as people. I've said it before, the best way I can describe it is that talking to people is like watching a cartoon. All I see is an object that moves around, makes noise, and is colourful. That is the limit of my connection to people.

            "You can't be a person, because I am the person and you are not me."

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        • dirtybirdy
          10 years ago

          Disarm you with a smile :)

          :D

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    It doesn't sound like you forgot completely or you wouldn't have written this. I do not think that most people are constantly remembering everything they ever did. I know I don't, but I didn't black them out either. When something reminds me about something I remember it just fine. That is because we can only think of so many things at a time.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      No shit but I'm talking about things that happened that would haunt most people for their entire lives.

      I recall often being reminded of various things, I just don't remember all of the things I've been reminded of.

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      • [Old Memory]
        10 years ago

        Sounds like you just don't give a shit. Pretty normal in todays society.

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