Is it normal to avoid comittment

The best advice I'd give to you is find somebody that is beautiful on the inside. Maybe it sounds cheesy but it's true. Somebody that has a good heart won't do any mean things like cheat, abuse, etc etc. If you think of people as a friend to begin, and since relationships are built on friendships that'll be a good way to start.

Im scared that maybe if i do allow myself to be open I might end up being vulnerable to the wrong person Im also scared of being played

I was you before I met this last guy I have been seeing. I'm known for being hard-headed, strong, and not take sh*t from anyone else. But then I met him...not to mention while I was with a my old bf. My ex bf and I were already on the rocks but meeting this guy you can say pushed it to end for sure. I wasn't planning on pursuing anything with him but the more we hung out, I realized he was the guy I pictured in my head and fell in love and now I am broken to pieces because its ending. Not only that, but its been a year that we've been talking and throughout it all, he hurt me a lot emotionally. It was the first time I felt vulnerable but something so real. Trust me, its the most magical thing you'll feel. Let yourself be vulnerable BUT make sure he is worth it. Although he hurt me, I think he was worth it all because I just loved him so much. I told myself before him, I want to feel something so real and let myself go and when i met him, I chose him to go through the experience with. But you're right. The pain after breaking up is terrible and sucks so much. I honestly can't give you advice on how to get over a break-up as I am going through it too and asking for advice from others. But knowing that he is worth it, is making it a little better. But like i said, don't be afraid of commitment or being vulnerable, just choose wisely based on your feelings for them.

What is love?!

Very normal, just be who you are and when the right person comes along you will know it