Is it normal to always feel sad?
I'm never happy. I'm always really depressed. If I am not at school track or work, I hide in my bedroom in my bed under my covers and cry till I fall sleep. I feel lonely. I feel like no one ever notices I'm here and I do so much. I go home and my mom has no clue I'm even home because of our work schedules, my dad came right out and told me he hated me, my siblings are busy or just simply haven't talked to me in a long. My friends all forgot I existed. I'm a male and shouldn't feel this way. I feel sick to my stomach all the time. I run and running makes it all feel better, till the run is over. I always just want to cry. I just feel so sad all the time. I dread the next day everyday I don't know why. I feel like I don't matter to anyone and I feel like I'm worthless. This lonely, unhappy, scared feeling; what is it? I haven't felt happy in such a long time. I don't know why.
The last time I felt happy was when I asked my coach to do a certain race with me so I wouldn't have to do it alone and he said yes. I felt like I could possibly be liked by somebody. How do I get those feelings like tat? What should I do about this whole thing? what is it? How do I become happy?