Is it normal to always be too scared to have sex?
I am 18, quite beautiful, and in good shape. Naturally there have been guys that wanted to have sex with me. I would try to resist, but they get pushy. I considered going all the way with two of them. (on 2 different occasions) Both were both quite a bit older than me, very handsome, and experienced. So I'd try and relax and let them do it. But just as they'd start to enter it would hurt so much and I'd jerk and cry. Then I'd end up saying I didn't want it, partly because it hurt, and partly because I was scared to "lose my virginity." Afterwards I'd feel so relieved, but so sorry for the guy. Both of these happened when I was 17, and now I'm still too scared. Is this normal or am I just a baby?