Is it normal to abandon your sexuality for someone else?

Hi i'm Fratl43*, I was always convinced that I liked girls. I have tons of male friends and found it hard to talk to other girls when I was younger. Hence, my friends treated me like one of the guys, Xbox live, PlayStation, football, nerding out, watching porn together and making comments about other girls and boys. I tended to always lustfully stare at girls.

Then I was at my part time job, during Christmas break for Uni, and this guy kept being incredibly sweet. Somehow he would always be there during my shifts, unnecessarily holding the door for me, carrying things for me smiling and being sweet, but I treated him like a normal customer. Just for imagery sake, i'm rather attractive 5 ft 8 long black hair, high cheek bones, curvature figure and I work out quite a bit, all in the ambitions to attract women. So, it's not like i've never been hit on, but like one of those sappy romances my heart thudded, and even when I left that store and went back to the one near my Uni, I was thinking of him. But I kept up my antics, frolicking with girls at clubs and I thought i'd forgotten the strange feeling in my heart. Until I transferred stores again during my next break to be with family and I saw him.

Honestly. My heart raced, my throat felt constricted, this familiar heat of frustration hazed my vision. I so happened to be at the cashier and as I served my hand lingered on his hand, and our eyes connected. There weren't any other customers. So I wrote my number on the back of the receipt, lent over the till, and breathed in his ear, "that a cute boy deserves an opportunity," and placed the receipt in his palm. He went so red and was so adorable that if I had, had a strap-on, on me, I would of toyed with him like a b**ch.

He composed himself, and made a joke that he's always the one hitting on women and we laughed a bit until other customers came and he left with my number. He called me, a couple of days later, and we got chatting, and just like any of my mates the conversation just flowed and I found myself thinking that I may have confused myself with these weird aroused feelings, and in my mind I friendzoned him. Once again, for imagery sake we have a 5 ft 8 guy (same height as me), size 9 feet same shoe size, (I often stole his shoes) cute strawberry blonde hair and gorgeous blue eyes, so I started to think I was mistaking him for a girl and was just horny, and like that we became mates, he didn't live far from where I grew up, so we hung out frequently. Then one night he called me saying he was in trouble, so I got up had a quick shower, put on a track suit and jogged to his house.

When I got there, he was perfectly fine, holding champagne, and said he wanted to drink in the early morning. So I made myself comfortable in his living room and we watched tv while drinking and his cute Chihuahua, fell asleep on my lap. He has a job, he's hot and funny, rents his own home, only issue probably him being 27 while I was 20 at the time. I put my glass down for one moment and the next thing you know, he was on me, snogging the air out of me. I won't lie I enjoyed it. He said he had been waiting for this the entire time, we stumbled from his living room to his bedroom. For a while we wrestled to take control. As, when I am with a girl I top, but of course I hadn't come with any expectations so had nothing on me. Well to get to the point he pulled his dick out, but I knew that we both had no condoms and sure I had protection built in, but I don't like risks, but I couldn't stop either the horniness was burning the air. So I made him eat out my ass and pound me, and oh my I had never felt this good. It was even better than watching a girl come by my fingers.

Since then, whenever I was in the area, we would meet and do anal. Sometimes he'd say he wanted us to be official, and he wanted me to meet his mates, and his family. But i'm not so keen on that. Partly since I found out that one of my colleagues at work was his doting uncle that is also a good friend of mine. Also he is bisexual, and one of his ex's owns the bar that I frequent and we are mates. Everyone I know, knows i'm lesbian and one of my best male mates confessed to me during 2016 on his birthday after having a joke snog ... he said he loved me forever. I broke his heart, making my reasons predominantly because I only like women, even though I know that's not true. Him and I, practically have a long distance relationship because of University, and I know were both not committed when were apart. I have this beautiful slut, with the best tush at Uni that loves to service me, and she's so hot, and I know from his Facebook he's been seeing some guys, but whenever we meet it's the same hot fuzzy passion.

But I really think this is a phase. I'm now 22 going 23 and he's 28 and i'm just confused.

I know i'm not normal, but is it normal to abandon the sexuality you've defined yourself by, for someone else.