Is it normal to , not want to do drugs anymore.

OP get out of the game while you can.
You are obviously not enjoying yourself like you used to & realising this is the first step to a drug-free life.
Don't be scared to have a drink or two (but don't go CRAZY) but at least get off the hard stuff, even marijuana.
I used for 10 years (been clean for 2) & best thing I done was giving up. Wish I gave up a lot sooner ( no regrets about doing it, it's made me who I am, just let it go on for too long)
If you can go without drink too, all the better...

& don't ever think you CAN'T or you WON'T OD...
I guarantee that's what most people think not long before they fry!

Its called maturity. You just might be growing up. Sometimes we see something damaging happen to someone else and we make the connection that if we keep doing the same behavior that it could happen to you. And it could. Go with this feeling that it isn't right for you. There is nothing wrong with it. In fact it could be a very positive thing in your life.

Post traumatic stress disorder.Just kidding.You used to associate fun to drugs and drugs to fun.
Now,after witnessing that event You associate fear of death or other bad consequences to drugs and alcohol.And by the look of it all..I'd say it's gonna get worse until you just need the drugs to "be yourself" rather than get high and "raise hell",I think you are starting to lack the ability to feel pleasure doing the only thing that made you have fun.Doing drugs,drink alcohol,and whatever comes next is gonna be more or less enjoyable depending on the thoughts and emotions going through your mind while you do the drugs and/or drink the alcohol.What You are getting is anxiety. You are afraid of ending up in an hospital bed,having to give explanations to medical personnel and ultimately your parents and relatives,who would probably be very upset at you for being such a careless lousy drug addict fool and what not.And that is,understandable.But feeling that bad about it? Totally exaggerated.If you don't have fun anymore,just game over. You can't possibly erase your own memory just so you can keep on enjoying your drugs and parties.And even if you could,it would reach an end anyway.So,before you develop some sort of drug induced mental illness,if you haven't already,which is my guess,get your shit together and deal with it.
And know,that you'll always be remembering "that time when your friend felt sick after taking drugs and almost died".It's normal but you have to deal with it asap.It's not in my intentions to scare you further but,you know,you got yourself in this mess and you take yourself out of it.You are not feeling "depressed" you are sad because your mind keeps going back to that moment.And you can't help it to feel at least partially responsible for what happened.So,take yourself out of the drug environment,go somewhere,where you can't find any,if you'd rather kick the stuff than keep taking it and feel the way you do.Otherwise do what most people do after events like that one,get over it,and take your chances.Worse scenario:you become yet another statistic of drugs misuse.

There is a safe amount if alcohol that can be consumed. But not much. Have you thought about why you do this? Do you need to change friends or activities? I used to be addicted to a very dangerous tranquilier. I had to be hospitalized for a month. I have been sober
since 1973. The sober world is much better than having to cover for all the stupid dangerous things you do when you're not sober. An MD told me that were going to have a huge increase in Parkinsons disease after the people that use meth and cocaine get older. You are sealing your fate now if you don't stop.

If you don't like it anymore, then don't do it. Especially x, which can be really dangerous. You may think an OD would never happen to you, but you're just as prone as anyone. Nothing wrong with social drinking, but nothing bad will come of quitting smoking and doing ecstasy. If you want to quit, quit. Your body will thank you!

they know what they're doing when they od. i mean, if that is'nt the case then the alternative is they're so stupid they're just impossible. the make it like some innocent took one pill from some street dude and ended up in the hospital. mostly i think they're just an idiot, most likely, or they want attention or suicidal. i mean the whole thing would be more complicated than you'd want to deal with. they might even be a control freak too. like i don't like this so i'm gonna od and ruin everybody else's fun as they see it. those people are just too complicated to have around. i mean, thats the point.

You think...Of course it is normal to live life clean and sober, I do it.

My parents are addicts and seeing them scrape by with garbage because they have lost the desire for a better life is just sad. To make up for it, I have chosen not to do drugs in any way or manner and I am happy being sober.

Perhaps you should try it. There is nothing wrong with facing problems with a clear head and not run from them from time to time.

Which cocaine?60%pure?70%pure?80%pure? Used how often?Cut with what?Baby laxatives?Or what? Drinking on it or taking it raw? Which kind of meth?You realize there are many different kinds of meth?And that they are never pure?Oh wait.You don't.Well...if taken how often and by who?And in combination with what else?
For shag sake you people are so lame.You realize that things like these can happen only because people are forced to use those substance out of a controlled environment? Just to have "fun"?No.Drugs are bad.They cause severe illnesses.Period.that's all they have to say.Well so does aspirin.So does the majority of over the counter meds!Dh!

alcohol isn't bad for you. drugs are much worse because they alter your brain chemistry MUCH more (and Extasy is probably the absolute worst trip you could put yourself through)... i wouldn't feel bad for drinking. that's absurd! i drink all the time and enjoy it a lot. its the drugs that are bad.