Is it normal that sometimes i wish i could experience terrible things?

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This may sound weird, but since when do people here ever sound normal? Anyway, sometimes I wish that terrible things would happen to me. I'm not suicidal and I'm not depressed, but I just want to experience what other people in the world are going through. For instance, I would love to live the life of someone with severe cancer for a few days. I don't really know the reason why I want to... I just want to reassure myself that I have some type of emotion and sympathy for others. Half the time I feel like my life sucks ass, but the other half I feel like I don't even what living a sucky life is life.

I just want to be able to feel something and to be able to gauge how people react to my awful situation, seeing if they care at all. And for some reason, I think that if I had a major illness, or had been a victim to abuse, rape, or anything else utterly horrible, I would finally be able to know the pain that the true victims are actually going through or have gone through. Now, why I want to feel their pain? I have no clue - maybe it'll help me defrost my inner frigid bitch, but other than that, I can't think of a valid reason.

I know that I shouldn't be wishing that things like this would happen to me, beause 1) they're all terrible 2) I could possibly die from them, and 3) some would wish to be in my place if possible.

I hope I explained this enough, but is there anyone out there that has ever felt this way too? Am I normal? Or am I completely insane?

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Based on 75 votes (35 yes)
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  • Shackleford96
    12 years ago

    It sounds to me like you just want to be able to empathize.

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    • [Old Memory]
      12 years ago

      couldnt have said it better

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      • Shackleford96
        12 years ago

        Thank you :)

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  • joybird
    12 years ago

    My gran always said, "Never go looking for trouble, it will find you soon enough." She was right.

    I remember thinking life was just sooo good and I had no problems when BANG!! I had a major car accident on a motorway, with brain and back injuries, from which I never fully recovered. It totally changed my life :o(

    Go and volunteer to visit cancer patients in a Hospice or feed the homeless etc if you want to see their lives close up.

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  • ArtEngineer
    12 years ago

    Everything you said, is thought by me too.

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  • Treez
    12 years ago

    Oo that's what it is then when the terrible things happen it's hard to bounce back

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  • sydniwolpe
    12 years ago

    Maybe you just want people to feel bad for you an see that they accually care about you when things go wrong. If you didnt get enough attention when you were growing up or just love the attention then it makes sence. I have gone though that before where i even want canser for a bit just to see wat its like. I think its totally normal

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  • The_white_shadow
    12 years ago

    I'm the same way!! Like I will like die or almost die and then yeah I constantly day dream of these things

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    I'll diagnose this as a simple case of being a good person.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    you want strong emotion, to feel something bigger than yourself? fear will do that or do you want others to show you love? either way might be easier to lay under the stars for many nights until the jig saw is complete

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  • Dozis
    12 years ago

    Even by making terrible things happen to yourself you wouldn't be able to feel what each single person who ever went through that experienced and felt since we are not all equal,on the psychological and social level at least.So you might even live it in a not so bad way,you could be able to put up with it relatively easily,but on someone else,it's quite more devastating.Or it can be the other way around.
    So you'd be only able to really relate and really know what other people who share most of their social,environmental and psychological settings with you.In other words your kin. We all live different situations in different ways,what we get out of it,out of the whole experience,is never the same thing.The same food tastes slightly differently for different people with different tastes.Subjectively.
    As it is for pain,you might have an higher resistance to it or not.
    Oh,if you lack empathy for people who went through something in particular,going through that yourself doesn't necessarily raise it.The contrary might as well happen.Or it could stay almost unchanged.
    You aren't "insane" you are just a hypocrite.
    You know all too well that you would never purposely get yourself in anything like that,but the thought,thinking you could do that,makes your conscience feel cleaner.So you can think you are a "better person" because you have "self sacrificial thoughts".Next thing that is probably gonna happen is:You becoming suicidal over failing somebody.

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