Is it normal that sometimes i just "sit there"?
For about the past year I've been going through phases in which I just sit on my porch and do absolutely nothing. I just sit and stare. Sometimes I think, sometimes I don't. The times I'm not thinking I feel like a statue trapped in a box. The times I do think seem to get me nowhere. It's usually a day or two a month and it's like for that one day I have given up on life. It's been getting worse these past few months. I will sit and do nothing for most of the day. It can take me days to talk myself into doing something I need to do such as clean house or wash my car. In these phases I'll take hours or even all day to talk myself into eating, even with my stomach growling and me wanting to gain weight - it just doesn't bother me or motivate me. It does bother me that it doesn't bother me though. Same thing with sleep and waking up. It just doesn't feel worth it sometimes to take care of myself or my life. I feel like I've lost all motivation and I feel like there's nothing I can do about this "statue phase" aside from just going through it. I haven't always been like this. Sure, I've had my meditative moments, but this is more like something I can't control. Does anyone else go through such things? I'm aware that it may be depression...