Is it normal that nothing phases me?
I'm almost 18 years old and honestly I don't care about anything or anyone, nothing phases/bothers me. When asked for opinions or how I'm feeling I always respond with 'Idk and Idc'. I literally feel nothing. Last week my cousin almost fell through the gap between the train and the platform and I legit just stood there whilst everyone was rushing to help her, I felt no emotions. A couple of days ago, my teacher fell down the stairs and twisted her ankle, I walked past her whilst everyone was rushing to help, the day after she asked me why I just walked past and I made bullshit up about going to get some help. I hate feeling like this, sometimes I hate myself not the extent that I want to kill myself but I honestly cry sometimes, its out of the blue as well which scares me even more. I'm afraid of what I'm capable of and I don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life