Is it normal that nothing i say or do feels like me?

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I've been depressed for a long, long time, and I have had on and off derealization and detachment problems. I also deal with what my therapist still tries to convince me is merely "Harm OCD". But the crux of what's going on currently is that lately, even though I'm choosing to say the things I say and do on my own terms and nobody else's, whether spontaneously or deliberately--And no act being put on--I still feel like nothing I say or do is me. I constantly feel like I'm channeling some other personality that's not quite me. It's hard to explain, like I'm not choosing to play a role, but that's what coming out--Merely a role, like a substitution for a genuine personality.

Is this normal for someone with depression?

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  • ucipher8
    11 years ago

    I diagnosed myself as having OCPD. I can kind of relate to this post... I feel as if i have an ability to emulate like an actor doing an impression of a politician for example. This kind of "thought process" can be translated in and out of my brain (physically and mentally).

    If i wanted to imagine that bruce willis was talking to me, Id picture his voice, and the cadence of his vocabulary and i can imagine, "Oh its bruce willis talking to me!"

    As someone who spends a lot of time alone, and someone who talks to himself i want to say that what you are experiencing is normal, you are just having a hard time figuring out if that is actually Y.O.U thinking these thoughts that you are thinking.

    I can tell the difference because I'm pessimistic therefore my thoughts should be in a pessimistic light. If i had an optimistic "thought" either it is a thought that is Foreign to my mind Or a scenario that i am capable of thinking through and observing in my mind.

    I know, i lost you a paragraph or so ago...

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  • Cucco
    11 years ago

    Yes, it's normal for someone dealing with this stuff. I've been dealing with OCD as well, am often depressed, and for a while now I've felt exactly this way. At times, it's just a burning emptiness, like I'm nothing inside. And other times, it's as you described, like I'm just not myself. I wish I could give some advice, but I'm still trying to deal with it as well.

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  • [email protected]
    11 years ago

    I'm really a wrestler for the WWE.

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  • macaroniheyo
    11 years ago

    i feel this a lot :( and i dont even think im depressed. only sometimes do i really feel like myself and i just wish i could get back to that place.

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  • americanhoney
    11 years ago

    I sense racial undertones here. Be careful with that.

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