Is it normal that no one can handle my mood swings?

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From as long as I can remember I've always had emotional dysregulation. I came from an abusive household and have also been sexually abused. I've been doing lots of research for a while and am convinced I have Borderline Personality Disorder but currently undergoing CBT for depression and social anxiety. I'm extremely impulsive and obsessive, one minute I meet someone and think they are the most amazing person ever then later I think their scum, want to kill them and don't see at all what I saw in them.

One big problem over the last few years has been relationships with others. I keep to myself because I know no one can live or deal with this yet people keep coming into my life fascinated by my behavior, and often become infatuated. I never ever liked them but I would always go with the flow. Then I would manipulate and constantly trigger arguments which always ended in them apologising. Eventually, I would leave suddenly only for them to bother me consistently confused as to what went wrong. Now when it comes to boys they can never handle my mood swings, I warn them from the beginning but they're still adamant that they can. It's normally really intense, I loathe intimacy but sometimes I just want to give it a try so when i'm in a good mood everything always goes well, but because I never trust anyone it takes one small thing to make my mood plummet so it never takes more than a few weeks before they leave and then I just feel stupid and used because I anticipated it anyway. I'm moody and very rude unpredictably around family, friends, any environment. One minute I can be happy, and focused on trying to pursue a successful life the next depressed, suicidal smashing things up and not bothered about a thing.

I've read online everyone says people with BPD are the worst to be with and you should run, and I don't blame people for saying this, but I can't control these mood swings and I get irritated really easily especially by immaturity, so am I the problem or this behavior normal?

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Based on 36 votes (24 yes)
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  • dom180
    10 years ago | pl

    Other people don't have a responsibility to handle you, and they shouldn't just put up with you unless they are either extremely kind or have no self-respect. They have a responsibility to make themselves happy, and if having you in their life isn't conducive to that then yeah - they're going to stop wanting to have you in their life. Whether it's your fault or not isn't relevant to them because all they see is someone who hurts them.

    I hope your CBT helps you deal with your problems. Good luck.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      Thanks. CBT didn't help infact and she now referred me to start DBT next year so hopefully that works

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      • dom180
        10 years ago

        Keep trying until you find something that works for you :)

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    I found a joint on the ground at anger management today. It sure made my day.

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    • BlueAlice
      3 years ago

      Gross and pathetic

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  • Shiroyasha
    10 years ago

    No one should deal with your mood swings. My best friend was bipolar and I suffered a lot because of that. The first year I did my best to make her life as easy as possible... but after a while I discovered that it is just not worth it.

    The only thing that I can tell you is that you must learn how to control this issue. You should try to at least be functional around people.

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  • peterr
    10 years ago

    I have BPD and it is a bitch. Wish I could help you. You sound like a lovely person regardless of your moods.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      Thank you. It's so hard when no one can see behind the brave face we put on everyday

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  • Holzman_67
    10 years ago

    I think by focusing on the centre of gravity in the universe you can overcome this

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  • BlueAlice
    3 years ago

    Yes, its your fault for not knowing better than to have Borderline Personality Disorder

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  • shuggy-chan
    10 years ago

    It takes someone that's has previous experience with that behavior I think. And even then, it take a certain amount of patience and stubbornness to work with it

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  • Shrunk
    10 years ago

    Oh... I like a guy like this... but I do handle his mood swings... and I don't even know why I like him so much. I feel like an idiot for it. my other friends don't like him, make fun of him and don't understand what I see in him. They just see a stupid jerk. But I can see he is smart, sweet and funny guy I enjoy talking to, even through the aloof behavior and occasional verbal rage(which I can hardly take seriously anymore). I am normally quite avoidant and have no problem giving people some time alone, but with him it's much harder to restrain myself... I just sort of hide in obscurity until he has a use for me, I do not mind, because I want so desperately to make him happy again... and for him to see value enough to like me in even the slightest... but that's probably just a selfish fantasy... I even spy on his chats with other friends, because that is the only place he will say nice things about me...

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    • Energy
      10 years ago

      He's very lucky to have someone like you in his life.

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  • thegypsysailor
    10 years ago

    If you know the problem, why can't you do something about it?
    If you feel this mood swing coming on, couldn't you just stop whatever you are doing, concentrate on this thing which is overtaking you, and get it under control?
    You are the one in control. You are stronger than your illness, know it, believe it, beat it. Take your life back.

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    • youareaghost
      10 years ago

      The point is she doesn't feel in control. You can't just take control if you don't believe you have control.

      Anyway, this guy is right. You do have control over your body and mind. If you're constantly telling yourself you have borderline, you might as well have it. It's that simple. You only choose to lose. You are obviously cognitive enough to understand you have problems, you're a step ahead.

      If you tell yourself you've been through a lot and every day you are becoming a better person, you're right too.

      You are your own problem. You have to focus on loving yourself 100%. There is no other way.

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    • BlueAlice
      3 years ago

      Borderliners enjoy having personality disorders and fuck up everyone and everything else around them for shits and giggles

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