Is it normal that my moods change often and sometimes i feel nothing

I'm 17 just about 18, I have a normal family, friends, and a part time job, I live a fine life....just why do I get into moods where I cant stand anyone at all, il just want to be alone, all day, every day, suddenly I'm useless and horrible, I hate myself and feel like no one wants me around (self harm happens at these times), but then a week or so later I can feel "on the top of the world" and run around and be happy, I can go from being your friend to wanting to punch you in the face in just one bad comment about me or something related and yet I still just stand there with a fake smile all day, every day, apart from those two feelings I also have times where I feel.....nothing.... I think of nothing, no voice in my head (I don't know if it's normal but I'm one of the quietest teenager that people will meet yet il have entire conversations in my head, pretty much what I don't say comes out in my conversations in my head), but back to the point, at times I don't even have that and everything I do just happens, all my impulses and words just start to pour out, I start getting into fights (not ending too badly for me considering many years of mixed martial arts and general fighting practice), one of the worst things, and quite possibly best, that I do it is become addicted to things extremely quickly, such as computer games, fighting, relationships (only been in one) and generally being better at specific things then most people, sleeping patterns.... Well there is none, at times il go to bed at like 8-9pm because I'm to tired to do anything and have been all day or il stay up all night or get like 3-4 hours sleep at most.... Honesty I don't believe this is normal....is it? :/

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Based on 23 votes (17 yes)
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  • dirtybirdy

    You may be bipolar..

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    • Braxeo

      I have a habit of taking online mental health tests, 90% say major depression with bipolar....I even took one when I was in my happy mood and it said major depression with bipolar.....

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      • dirtybirdy

        Well you could see a doctor to find out for sure. You'd likely be offered medication. It helps some people tremendously, but not everyone. Or you could try to help yourself, which isn't easy, but its possible. You're aware that something doesn't seem right and that's a good start.

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  • Braxeo

    Yeah I probably should, just whenever I "try" to see a doctor I get this "it's all in my head" feeling and that they'd say I'm just making it up and that I'd be wasting their time...

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  • driedroses

    You might be Bipolar, or you might just be struggling because you're in your teenage years. It's harder to diagnose mental illnesses in teens. There are non-medicinal ways to level yourself out. I'd suggest trying some things to add balance in your life. http://tinybuddha.com/blog/9-tips-to-create-a-balanced-life/ But, if these feelings carry into adulthood medicine could be a proper alternative. Hope my advice is okay x

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  • Braxeo

    Alcohol doesn't effect me too much really, I get tipsy and can't walk straight but for some reason I can always choose what I want to say, I don't go on massive "blurt out whatever comes to mind" rants and stuff, I just laugh uncontrollably for about 15-20 minutes and then have trouble walking around :)

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  • Caryopteris

    The worst thing to do is try to self-medicate with alcohol. For most people with bipolar, alcohol has a disastrous effect. It is not as obvious to the person drinking as those around them. It is rough.

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  • Braxeo

    I have like 2 friends that il go and see out of school, significant others....apart from family I haven't had a gf for about a year, I would probably say I feel like I'm on my own, in a completely different place, no ones coming to get me and and I can just be on my own, and yeah I feel suicidal at times..like now ones going to miss me and it doesn't really matter anyways if I'm gone, il be replaced soon enough.

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  • RoseIsabella

    What kind of Relationships do you have with friends and significant others? When you commit self harm do you ever feel dissociative? Do you ever feel suicidal?

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