Is it normal "that my life just gets worse?" very long

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There was no potential sociopath category, typical.. so I put it in feelings.

Where to Start... ah yes, A few weeks back i went to go see my doctor. I had to book 2.5 weeks in advance as he is impossibly popular & people from all over New Zealand come to see him because he is very good. I had to see him to renew my prescription of Efexor-xr (anti depressant) i had have severe Depression and Anxiety my hole life but it was only diagnosed last year, we started talking about how I've been and i was concerned that the drug weren't doing anything After awhile we started arguing about what's really wrong with me, he then said that i have the potential to become a sociopath if i were to go off the rails so to speak :( I've known this doctor my whole life... and don't know where that came form.. then he went on to explain all of the traits i have that fit the profile of a Sociopath.... quite alot except the evil ones (yet)

So now i'm more depressed even though i completely doubt what he said.

Anyway

My Family is massively in debt & my parents aren't happy.

All my friends are guys, Girls never talk to me and I'm rubbish at taking to them.. but i try, the thing is i'm on a different level to most people :(...

i have impossible standards in myself so i hate everything i do...( i don't tell people)

All my friends say i'm really smart & Good looking & that i have piercing blue eyes, i'm not so sure..(been told this, by guys though) so why don't people talk to me? i smile too?

on the sickness benefit

The worst part is.... i can hide everything, most people just think i'm normal and nothings wrong with me even when i tell them i have depression their like, No you Don't!! you just want to be on the sickness benefit ???

i love animals & nice to everyone i'm Spontaneous in my ways and unpredictable i never do anything the normal way, if there is such a thing... i tend to be really honest and see no point in lying yet i obviously do keep some things to myself as not to hurt anyone, when unnecessary - tactful, would be the word for me.

I think that's enough background knowledge. So is it normal that I'm invisible to girls? and completely fucked!!!!!

Now i suspect all the genuine people on here will leave and be replace by trolls
just for this post :P so knock yourselves out!!!

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  • robbieforgotpw
    11 years ago

    I'd like to publish your novel

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  • joybird
    12 years ago

    It shouldn't be too hard to find something topical in the newspapers or on the internet that you find interesting. Then you can start a conversation by saying, "I read an interesting article about.... "

    Anyway, we are all different and you will find someone that suits your personality some day soon. Don't worry about it, it will happen when you least expect it. Just be yourself and see who you attract.

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  • TyLee
    12 years ago

    I think that you sound really nice. I think your problem is when you say that you are bad at talking to girls. Im a girl and have nevet ever asked a guy out. (unless I only wanted to be just friends) You just have to ask because you will be surprised at how many girls are waiting for you to go for it. If they turn you down don't worry about it. The trick to talking to girls is to give some compliments and appear to be genuinely interested in what they have to say. Obviously keep up with your appearance too. Idk what you look like but whiten those teeth, shave, do a bit of sunbathing, style your hair etc. And remember the great thing about depression is that you are feeling something. You don't seem like a sociopath to me. Believe it or not some of my best memories are from when I was suffering from depression because it allowed me to gain new experiences. So try to have a more positive outlook on it.

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    • Knives
      12 years ago

      Hi Tylee, :3 thanks

      Um... The problem is i am good looking i do keep up my appearance to the extent i've even started shaping my eye brows! and wearing Armani code colonel... all my clothes are slim fit and near new.. (i'm not rich at all haha i just don't get out much)

      Its just when i talk to people because i've spent years since i was a kid thinking and reading (loner with to much time to myself) my general knowledge isn't so general and my interest are things people don't even know existed :/ so i have to watch what i say not to seem like a weirdo - haha the funny thing is i get so anxious i probably come across as stupid!

      i've had depression since I was born i don't know what is like with out it :(

      Anyway thanks Tylee for you Great Comment ;3

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    It's easy to be honest with others, but it's hard to be honest with oneself. I suggest that you ignore your doctor and listen to yourself. Try doing something fun. Just for you. As for the girl, be patient. You sound pretty good at acting but I can guarantee you that you're not the only one. Hope you find her. Peace.

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    • Knives
      12 years ago

      Fun ? my depression kills my fun :/ thanks

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  • dappled
    12 years ago

    There are people of certain occupations who will try to screw you. As far as I can see, doctors don't belong in that category. Trust your practitioner, take their advice, and feel better. As you alluded to in your post, people here don't have a massive interest in your wellbeing and may even make you a target to make fun of.

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    • Knives
      12 years ago

      Haha thanks - yeah but it seems i made it long enough so it wasn't worth the effort for them :)

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      • dappled
        12 years ago

        Good thinking. ;)

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