Is it normal that my life is messed up?
My life feels like a movie script. I had a boyfriend and I was so in love with him. We talked a lot about what it would be like when we got married someday. Then he broke up with me and I was so depressed and heartbroken. It was probably the worst I've ever felt in my whole life. During our relationship I became friends with his best friend. So then, less than a week after the breakup, his best friend asked me out and I started dating him. We've been together for 3 months. At first I thought I was in love with my new boyfriend, but now I don't even think about him that much. And since he's my ex's best friend, I always have to hear about my ex. And a few times the 3 of us have hung out together. I'm a lot better than I was at first, but I'm still sad about my ex. I miss him and wish we were still together. At first when I got my new boyfriend I thought I was so in love with him, but now I don't know. I don't think about him that much anymore. I only think about my ex. And I don't know if I mean it when I tell my new boyfriend I love him. When he says, "I love you" I have to force myself to say, "I love you too." I don't want to say it. I don't feel like I mean it when I say it. He is such a nice and sweet guy and he's so good to me, but I only think about my ex. At this point it doesn't seem like my ex will ever get back together with me. My new boyfriend is going to join the military, and I said I don't want to go with him, so he said when he leaves we're going to break up. But he still wants to date until then.