Is it normal that my husband loves my pussy and should that turn me on?
I've been married to my husband for almost 8 years. He says he loves my pussy and I believe him but I guess I never thought this would happen.
I never had much pleasure of my own in sex until this relationship and my pleasure was never focused on until my husband. I never thought anything of myself in that way and don't really express myself sexually. Even now with a husband who still goes down on me and makes me orgasm almost every single night before he does, I still can't seem to enjoy this like he says I could.
After having talked about this stuff with him in the past, I shared that I was self conscious about myself down there and I can't seem to get over that enough to really enjoy " giving it to him".. He said he just wants to see me relaxed enough to really experience the pleasure he gives me so I can enjoy it but instead no matter how obviously attracted to me he is, I can't believe he actually wants it in a way that doesn't just end in him orgasming like most men do.
I've seen other women write things about letting thier men taste them, or talking confidently about enjoying pleasure but I don't seem to be able to do that and I have a man who's willing to do anything I want but I struggle to let myself want things. He makes me orgasm every single night almost and yet I rely on him taking the initiative to do it because I can't ask myself and when he does, I am quiet and sort of still. I want to enjoy giving him what I know he loves which is my pussy, and I want to enjoy getting what I ask for gut I can't get there.....
What do I do, is this at all normal? Why can't I just take and explore the potential for my own sexual pleasure?