Is it normal that my first kiss was with a boy?
We will call him Ash. He was a foreign exchange student I met in middle school who dressed in bright colors and was vary small and lean.
We exchanged glances a few times, but it was really awkward, I remember how uncomfortable I was, yet I wanted to talk with him at the same time
Before the bus arrived, some boys decided to beat up Ash because he couldn't speak english that well
I still smirk remembering Ash kicking their asses with some kind of Judo. It was the most amazing thing I ever saw, 5 boys a head taller then him, and BAM!
I made sure I sat with him on the bus, and I gushed the whole way on how awsome that was, he just laughed it off but he looked pleased at the same time
We quickly became inseparable, hanging out at lunch, eachother's houses, everywhere. We talked about everything, except for girls, because he got grumpy when I talked about one that I had a crush on. I never really had to deal with bullies, Ash took care of that
Rumors about us being gay started popping up. I didn't get it, other boys hung out, why were we the gay ones?
We were two peas in a pod for a good year and a half...before i found out I was moving
Ash was even more devastated then I was (I really didn't like it there)
On the night before I was supposed to move I was hanging out at his place. His father wasn't there and the house was empty, but he still wanted to hang out in his room with the door closed. I vaguely noticed he locked the door, but after that it was pretty much like every other day.
I was heading to leave when ash said
"wait!"
I turned around and saw that he was violently shaking, looking at the ground with tears in his eyes, his hands balling up into fists. He looked like he was about to scream or something
I went over to pat him on the back, he looked like he was in alot of pain. but when I reached out...
He grabbed my wrist, and the the other one and pinned me against the wall, arms above my head. I was in shock, before I could say anything he was kissing me....
It wasn't an innocent peck on the cheek either, I still blush thinking how he could of learned to kiss like that. although I struggled and made alarmed noises at first, I was lost in the sensations that shot through me, my legs gave out and I couldn't even see strait...I had no idea a tongue could do that to a person at that age
next thing I know I'm lying on the ground in a daze with Ash on top of me. I have really no idea how long we were lip locked like that or how far Ash planned to take things, but it all stopped when there was a loud knock at the door.
It was his father. Ash hastily got up and opened the door, I was lost to the world...his father figured we were watching an adult film. when I came to my senses I was mortified, Ive been confused ever since