Is it normal that my feelings are often like a roller coaster?

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Everyday I remember all the fail I had in my life... That I lost all persons close to me (and poorly they are just one - my sister)...
She turned into a cold person and I was the last time we had contact only a burden. I was not welcome...
...And it ended with a conflict (She thought I've stolen something from her, but I never did...)

In the end, she was the only person I had... The only person i could talk with and especially she was close to me and helped me when i was sad like hell...

2013 - the year i lost so much...

My mother lost some weeks ago her job also...

School is crap,, everything is disappointment. Everything I do is ignored or criticized - that's all. I have no motivation to move forward... It's like I want the absolute stand still and brake out this time...

Currently it is like I am in a black hole, here is no tomorrow nor yesterday, only the eternal now...

It's such a nightmare... Everyday life becomes more and more a vortex which sucks me under the ground...

I am a lonely, inept bastard, not worth to live.
I disappoint everyone, even if I only want to see them happy...
...I want burn them all even I want see them smile...

I feel like an extraterrestial, not belonging into this cold, dark world... like an accident of a time travel... i don't know...

I feel so infinite lonely and it seems like I only want escape... All the things I do is just surfing on the internet, wasting my time...

Every morning when I wake up I have no reason to stand up: ...How is it to wake up into a nightmare...

Sleepig is so sweet... like the imitation of death self...

...Sleep is sweet, because all the conscious feelings there flow away...

All I want is to see that I am not just a number/ meaningless consumer/ someone which feeds the government...

I want be a human and I want to feel nature, but i can't... I am bound, braided in this stupid, fucked up system which only wants to destroy and rob me...

It sucks everything good...

What I do is: It is like I throw my soul at the ground to feel better... It is like a bouncing ball... I have no strength to come up...

...but the ground turns more and more into quicksand...

I feel like gravity presses me infinitely and there is no escape...Like a collapse into myself...

Or like i die inside...

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    LISTEN FUCK WHAT THE REST SAID, LISTEN TO ME! READ THIS, YOU-ARE-NOT-ALONE!!!!

    That shit was so deep. I so get what you are saying. These stupid fuckers don't get it. Look at those comments man, shit!!

    I am going tru the same fucked up shit as you right fucking now, and it's hard man really really hard. You know. It's like nobody seems to get you. Nobody seems to see how fucking hurt you really are. They think you're overreacting right? Like shit ain't that bad. Fuck em al! Fuck everybody! Fuck everything that makes you feel fucked up!

    Listen, nobody can help you, but yourself. Re-read that shit. NOBODY CAN HELP YOU, BUT YOURSELF!

    You don't need people! You don't! You are stronger then you think!!! BELIEVE ME! And if you feel alone, im here! Just picture me next to you, we are going to get tru this shit! This is an cold cold world! Nobody really cares about nobody. You shouldn't either! And i know it sounds easier then it is, i know believe me i know. But we gotta pull tru this shit man! You are worth living!! I swear to god you are!!!!

    What makes you feel relaxed? Coffee? Maybe jogging? Anything that gives you a little joy in side, do it! Like me, i love me some starbucks and a sigaret to chill down. I always plan a moment for myself to just chill and don't think about nothing. I got kicked out of school, don't got no work no more, just got a break with the love of my life, you can say i lost pretty much everything. BUT i'll never lose hope! I'll never stop! NOBODY CAN TAKE ME FROM ME! SAME FOR YOU! THEY CAN TAKE YOUR FRIENDS FAMILY EVERYTHING BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY THAT LOYAL FUCKER IN THE MIRROR NEVER LEFT YOU!

    You're not crazy you are just to good for this fucked up world! WE ARE GOING TO GET TRU THIS!!!!

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  • DragonQueen
    10 years ago

    Manic Depressive Disorder?

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  • peterr
    10 years ago

    You need to have lots of oral sex, meaning suck some cock and get some protein in your system. It works!!!

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    • Dywiann
      10 years ago

      NO! If i would want more protein than i would rather eat insects -.-

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      • peterr
        10 years ago

        Or nuts, you could eat my nuts....hahahah!

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  • peterr
    10 years ago

    Cheer up for fuck sakes. Everything will be okay in the long run.

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  • rachel.dsouza
    10 years ago

    Its pretty much normal..sometimes it happens with me too.so relax and dont feel this way..everything good or bad is in our mind only..stay happy buddy.

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