Is it normal that masterbate to snuff porn

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i have a strange fetish i love to watch porn that involes a woman strangled and stabbed of course its all fake but i think about it sometimes all day i get so horny i try not to masturbate to it because i dont want to be like the next ted bundy but i loose control some time and masturbate to it non stop for days i even go on best gore and watch beheading and hanging videos and jack off god its like a high i love it yet hate it it i dont want to hurt anyone so i havent had a sexual partner for 3 years now i dont want to be judged and i cant enjoy normal sex where im not in total control i love the though of holding a knife to their throat and strangling them to they pass out and having them beg for me not to kill them or even to kill them i love the though of strangling them to they pass out but i dont want to hurt them i just love thinking about these things how it all started was i got shown a website with gore and murder from a friend i acted like i hated it and was grossed out but secretly got the biggest boner i have ever gotten that night i jacked off non stop to the videos of the girls getting murdered i have never had a orgasm ever with anyone but that night i cam so much i felt sick but from that night i been addicted its been 4 years i was 17 then im 22 now i even have been thinking about buying rats from the store just to torture them to get rid of theses urges maybe if i let it out on rats my sexual impulses will decrease because not masturbation doesnt help its make me worse i am i the only one im i normal what should i do?

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  • Dazed_dreamer
    8 years ago | pl

    Leave the poor rats outta this.

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    • RoseIsabella
      8 years ago

      Amen to that! Rats are sweet babies that make awesomely loving pets.

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  • Arm0se
    8 years ago

    Whatever. Just don't hurt anyone and don't buy those fucking rats to kill.

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  • bleach_baby
    8 years ago

    Get therapy. Seriously. The more you bottle this up the worse it'll become, and like you said, you don't want to hurt anyone. There isn't a safe way to express these urges, you need to talk them through with a professional. They won't tell anyone and they won't judge. Get help before it's too late, and in the meantime, stop feeding your compulsions with pornography.

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  • handsignals
    8 years ago

    Have a feeling this post is going to be used as evidence one day.

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    You don't want to be judged?
    >:-(

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    Shit.
    Take me.
    I am yours

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  • lostbootboy69
    8 years ago

    thank you so much

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    OP, relax. Breathe in, breathe out.

    If you are worried so much about this (and it seems that you are), I suggest going to a sex/kink positive therapist and talk about this.

    You clearly need to talk to someone about this and I don't think this site can help you much in that department.

    Now, I want you to introduce you to BDSM. There are people that are sadists, they get off on hurting others but in reality DO NOT wish/want to hurt anyone 24/7 out of the blue completely.

    There are just some things (some are more extreme than others) that turns us on for no reason whatsoever and nobody can really understand it. But it's alright because you're not alone in this.

    I'm saying this to you because you sound like an okay guy. So far.

    You are AWARE of what turns you on and you are AWARE that you in fact do not wish to hurt anyone at all. That's good. That means that you in fact have empathy and care for others.

    But, since you mentioned almost buying rats and stuff.. it's a slippery slope.

    That is why I urge you to visit a sex/kink positive therapist and get yourself help.

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  • peridot
    8 years ago

    Umm I'm pretty sure this is NOT normal. I'm a bit worried about your future girlfriends, and I'm also hoping you don't buy rats, they are really smart and sweet animals, and they don't deserve to suffer for your own pleasure...

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    Just stop watching snuff and try focusing on things besides sex. Keep a regular jackoff routine so that you are never horny for more than a few minutes and maybe take some pills that lower your sex drive. Im not much of a fan of therapy, but I have had bad experience with the mental health system, but perhaps you can give it a try. People dont really get to choose their thoughts and sometimes we are burdened with desires we do not wish for. These kind of thoughts seem innate and may not go away, but you can distract yourself with other things besides getting off. And please do not torture animals. Not only is it cruel, but it will only make things worse. These kinds of thoughts do not go away when you engage in them. They grow, which is why every time you watch it, you will want to actually do it more each time.

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  • lostbootboy69
    8 years ago

    i never said i would i said im scared i will

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  • ______________
    8 years ago

    If you know that you'll give in to these desires one day, why not willingly place yourself in solitary confinement?

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  • lostbootboy69
    8 years ago

    i have done bugs
    that kinda what made me want to try rats i not like hurting animals but im this arouse all the time so its gotten to the point i need a release

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  • MrSexyJesus
    8 years ago

    only if you use blood as lubricant

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  • CloverFish
    8 years ago

    It certainly isn't normal, but you're not forcing it on anyone which is good. And it certainly is a difficult fetish to have.

    Please don't bring rats or any other pet type into this though. Maybe bugs? Doing that to bugs isn't illegal.

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  • lostbootboy69
    8 years ago

    you have no idea what this feels like

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    • RoseIsabella
      8 years ago

      Stop looking at all pornography, ESPECIALLY don't EVER look at snuff porn again, and you should start to get better. You NEED to see a mental health professional STAT!

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  • NathanScot
    8 years ago

    I feel for u mate.The rat idea is a good one.You will be able to release some tension that way.

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