Is it normal that lately that i've been feeling so alone have no one?

It might help you feel better if you tell your friends. Friends like to support one another; if you were my friend, I'd want to know.

Is there any chance you can actually leave your husband? I think leaving him would be preferable to death, but I understand how you can feel that way. Sometimes it can feel like there's no other alternative, that you are condemned to being miserable just because you happen to be female. Are you supposed to meekly accept your lot in life? Or do you fight for something better, for a bit of happiness? And you wonder if there really is anything better or if it's only your imagination.

I hope your friends are able to help you.

You can seek out support groups for this. They have actual experience and can show you options for your life.

It's a shameful situation for sure. I'm sorry to hear about that. Of coarse your feeling down, this is a situation where you basically feel raped. I'm guessing your not able to divorce this man, or able to make your own decisions in the matter. You may think this as crumby advice, but I recommened you try and make the best of your situation. It would be extremely hard, but maybe try to get to know your husband and maybe you could grow to love him? If you really can't divorce and leave the situation, it might be your best option. You don't want to seeth in hatred and be miserable for the rest of your life.. I recommend telling your friends, it helps to have someone to talk to

get help! you don't have to be alone. please tell someone the police, a friend just someone this is wrong and you need to get help.

Arranged marrige? I wasn't aware that this still happened! That sounds horrible! How could you be in love with somebody that your parents set you up with, and forced you to marry! I guess before I give my opinion I should know what country you live in and what customs are there?

That's so sad :( apply for a new job or college in a different country maybe & get yoorself a fresh start! Yoo don't have too do what everyone expects yoo too *hug* wish yoo all the best hunni ! X

Tell your friends, if they are good friends they will try to help you. And leave him if you can, you should be able to marry someone that you love, not some stranger. I wish you luck, i hope you will be free of this horroble marraige.