Is it normal that im the most pathetic 19 year old who ever lived?

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This is probably the most pathetic thing you ever heard in your life.

I'm a 19 year old girl enrolled in college for the past 3 years and I'm failing miserably not because I'm stupid but because i have been depressed for as long as the past 2 years.

I have NEVER and i mean NEVER been in a relationship or even a functioning friendship I try to look good (I don't think I'm ugly just awkward )and fake a sense of self confidence but guys never look twice.
I'm depressed to no end I just want to be touched for god's sake not even sexually just hold hands with someone.... how pathetic is that?

I have considered suicide but I don't want to hurt my family they did nothing but love me I'm sorry for this confusing post but I wanted to to tell someone how I feel besides myself nobody really knows I feel that way........so is it normal?

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Based on 31 votes (19 yes)
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  • wibamuftw
    11 years ago

    Depression is the worst, sometimes it can make you feel like there's literally something seriously wrong with you. Unfortunately there are SO many people that go through the same thing you do. I've been severely depressed before, even dropped out of a semester of college slaughtering my GPA when my very first semester was a 3.9 at that school and I also know of someone who did the same exact thing. I even tried to kill myself when I was, as in was I mean four months ago, only 19 years old after a long period of unfortunate events that I thought I couldn't handle, but I could and I was lucky enough for a second chance. I'm only 20 and I can't even tell you all the crap I've been through. Now I'm a nanny and I have someone I am in love with and I'm with my family and surrounding myself with good things so all of the bad things that bitch called life gives me doesn't bring me down. You need to take a break and relax, hang out with some friends. If you don't have any, I'll be your friend, we can watch movies together via the internet and talk on the phone. Find something you enjoy doing don't rush and worry about the future all the time. There are so many hardships in life, but that's just the way life is, it's almost always one thing after another but you have to realize that nothing will come your way that you can't handle, you can literally do anything. You also should talk with your family about how you feel. Families are the best in situations like that. You also have to realize how many other people out there that are going through so much worse, people that don't even have a place to live, don't even have a family to worry about caring if they're not there. Sorry for all the rambling, your situation hits my sympathy with true heartache.

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  • blacklabelbeeryum
    11 years ago

    I don't have a girlfriend so I'm the most pathetic 23 ever, if I'm still single by next year september, I'll be the most pathetic 24 year old ever

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  • pipinya
    11 years ago

    You're not the "most pathetic nineteen year old". Only if you think you are. If you allow yourself to be, then you are, so don't let yourself do that. You can do better!
    I'm sorry it's been left for so long, but go see a psychiatrist, or even just a psychologist
    It'll get better if you allow it to. So don't hold back!

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  • MRmr
    11 years ago

    Lol you sound exactly me but Im a guy. Im also 19 and not doing so great in school lol but no need to kill yourself, everything works out in the end...if it doesnt its not the end

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  • squeallikeasacofpigs
    11 years ago

    I would recommend going away for a while. Getting some sunshine will do you good. Miami is nice this time of year. We all have problems in our lives, but they pass eventually, and others will come. Just suck it up.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    That's unfortunate.

    I would like to offer you some advice but i have never been in that situation so i can't really.

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    • NeonLighterz
      11 years ago

      That's like someone asking for a dollar, but saying they left it at home.

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      • Terence_the_viking
        11 years ago

        I know today i feel like i have let the op down.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    I feel like you all the time. I just found out (and it was my fault for not researching this beforehand (but one reason IS because of my depression)) that I can't claim residency for school because I'm under 24. (Even though I've lived on my own since I turned 18.) That means I've been waiting to go to school for a year and it was all for nothing.

    I've been depressed since I was 16 (I'm 21) and I finally went to see a psychiatrist last week because my moods change so often and are so intense that I'll be okay (even better than okay) at work (or anywhere) one moment then all of a sudden my mood plummets, I get extremely anxious and scared that I've been close to walking out and killing myself.

    After a while it gets old pretending you're confident and cheery when really you're holding back tears.

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    • kinklu
      11 years ago

      I think you'll discover as you grow older, that we start life with very volatile emotions which grow ever more stable with age until you reach middle age at which point you begin to realize you've experienced wars, national crises, floods, famine, pestilence, and everything under the sun and survived.

      Then, one day you have your 40th birthday and everybody tells you, "Life begins at forty" and you want to tell them to shut up as you begin to realize time is limited and yours is running out. Then you decide life isn't so bad and you you've survived so far so why not see the rest of the play because it's really quite fascinating.

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  • kelili
    11 years ago

    That's so sad.

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  • BLOWMENOW
    7 years ago

    You need cock in your 3 holes.
    Have you ever seen a naked boner cock in person ?
    You need to sit on a dude's face and let all of your frustrations out and let Mother nature let all of your excretions
    { cum , piss , fart , shit } loose on a guy's face.

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