Is it normal that im attached to my past?
hi, i dont think im normal n google suggested this sit :/
ok here i go, over the years iv had alot of problems, friends failed me, a guy i fell in love with n was with 1 year n 4 months trampled on my heart n the wounds r still there, even though iv met a ne guy n was happy with him, just at the moment we argue alot, i keep mentioning m past, and cant let it go, i dont know what i want, my past or future with new boyfriend iv been with almost 7 months. i fall in love to easy and fall hard , iv only ever had 2 boyfriends and both i fell hard for. i just feel like lifes fake, i feel lonely even though im surounded my many people at this current time, but i cant help feel they wont be around forver just like the people i have met n walked away in my past. i feel negative alot too. like nothing lasts forever, specially since my 1st breakup. i keep thinking of my past and when i see my ex i feel scared and sick and no lie i feel like i cant even stand up my legs r shaky im scared ill lose my balance i eel that sick, my life also seems fake cause my ex has changed so much, it makes what we had seem so fake, before he was decent nw he smokes , drinks, does drugs, has had 5 gf's and im scared