Is it normal that im a sucker for love?
I've been with my boyfriend 4 n a half yrs on n off since I was 16 and he was 19. Im 20 now and he is 23. He means a lot to me and him being my 1st has played a big role with my feelings towards him. I have had other relationships in between our break ups but I end up right back with him...its going on 5yrs and through all the mess and craziness we have been thru I would like a commitment or something it just seems like im never going to get it. Its like im wasting my time he say he wants to be with me and that he wants to fix the kinks but I don't see no effort at all...I love u is not enough or claiming he doesn't want to loose me. Ill admit i have trust issues with him cause i feel like he lie about little things im here no matter what why lie to me. I just don't know what to do anymore im tired of crying, nagging, and trying to get him to see im all for him to much I may say! I feel like we have a lot of growing up to do in this relationship but it's as if im trying by myself. I don't want to keep leaving and I end up back at it again some may say I can't be as tired of him as I may say yet its out of hope that keeps me coming back..but the trying to make things work with little help as well as of talking saying the same shit and he's not hearing me is gettin to me emotionally! Somebody share some advice please.