Is it normal that i would rather die then never see my friends again?

Please don't think I'm trolling here. I'm being serious. You know how there's some people who'd rather be dead than be without someone they love/care about? Well, I'm one of them. Since I lost my friends and haven't seen them in a while, I honestly would rather die early in my 30s or 40s than spend the rest of my life without them. I just don't believe that a long life's worth it if it doesn't involve your friends (Especially if you've known them for years like I have). After all, to me, falling into complete oblivion is better than suffering the rest of my life feeling grief and regret. I know that I made many mistakes/done stupid things but that doesn't mean I should be punished the rest of my life by never seeing Katrina or Butler again. I want to see them again so I can tell them how much I care about them/how much they mean to me and make it up to them anyway I can and try being there by their side as often as I can be. I just want to see those two again so I can be the true friend that I did a poor job at as a child/teenager (atleast, that's what I think). If I can see Katrina and Butler again and reform our friendship, then I can finally let go of my woes, live a longer life, and die being at peace. If I can't get my friends back while I'm still alive then I will get them back in death. No matter what.

PS: Since finding a partner/having or adopting kids aren't my goals in life, it doesn't matter if I die early or not (Even if it means taking my own life should a natural disaster, accident, or illness not do it for me).