Is it normal that i would do anything to be straight

Be who you are with who you love. If you want to get married, do it. Marry a man in a place where gay marriage is legal. If you want kids then adopt them. There are a lot of kids looking for homes out there. Being who you are is the only way to have a happy life. Don't waste your life being what everyone wants you to be, life is too short for that. There is nothing wrong with you and you don't need to be fixed because you are not broken.

the problem you may have is that... if you marry, you're lying to your spouse.

wouldn't the hypothetical spouse deserve a real partner? i mean they're giving up their chance at love for... a lie with someone who doesn't actually want them completely.

although it may make you feel "normal", you'd be cheating them out of true happiness.

I really feel for you. But don't worry. You can get an egg donor and surrogate for only $40,000 in India so you can have your own genetic children. You can also get married in some places and enter a civil union in others. You can have a family just like hetero couples have. Your family and friends will eventually treat your family like any other. The world is changing, my friend, and very, very quickly. Too quickly for the bigots, ha ha. Please don't be sad. BTW, my husband and I can't have children so not all hetero couples are blessed with a family. Also, my in-laws don't like me so not all hetero couples are accepted by everyone.

Do you really want to live all your life miserable?! Just for OTHER people?! It's YOUR life..not theirs. Be whatever makes you happy and comfortable.

And don't make some woman go through a fake marriage just because you don't have the balls to be happy. Not you, not her, deserve that.

You should accept yourself for who you are.

Well you aren't alone if you have friends. God loves us all so you are never alone.
Personally I'd say steer away from relationships straight or otherwise in this society anyway. There is no loyalty there is no true commitment and too many people are selfish. Plus the amount of disease out there is just insane.
It's too easy to cheat these days too. People are all hoping from one person to the next. Keep your secret let it out whichever but these days single and clean is the only way to go.

You're not alone. I'm a gay man and I've been through exactly the same thing. Before I became 18 I've tried everything I could to convince myself I was straight. I've told people I had crushes on other girls, I would constantly visit straight pornographic websites and try my hardest to feel aroused, I even went as far as to sexually harass another girl in elementary school. Through all of this, I have never once felt a single thing for the opposite sex.

It got to a point where I was just tired of having to lie to myself, so I accepted my sexuality. I could not be anymore proud of who I am. The male form is very beautiful and I would not trade it for a chance to be straight, not even for a second.

Regarding your family and friends though, if they truly love you they will have the strength to see past your sexuality and remember that you're still the same person you've always been. I can't say for certain if all of your loved ones will come to accept you in time but that's just the kind of risk you have to take to be as happy as possible.

Be open about yourself when you feel ready but don't keep it inside forever. The longer you go on the way you are now, the more it could scar you mentally.

Use a blow up woman thingy and practise heads n stuff

This is just a personality problem, maybe a phase of sexual confusion or you are concerned about your future. But you should be who you are and accept yourself. Being gay can be something you can be proud of in modern society. Even though it's not always easy.

If you're friends and family can't accept you for who you are that's sick. Don't be afraid! It would be unfair to yourself and to the woman you marry and the kids you have. Think about the guy out there who is waiting to fall in love with you. Think about the children who would love to be adopted by you and your partner. And mostly think about the relief you will feel after coming out! I'm assuming you live in America (offence intended America you close-minded bunch of hypocrites). Maybe take an extended holiday and sort out your feelings away from judgement. Try New Zealand, we are extremely open to all sexualities!!!

I'm straight and I wish I was gay. Your better off mate trust me. Women are more trouble than there worth. And who wants to get married and be stuck with one person forever? Kids are selfish manipulitive little blighters that'll just drain your bank account. Marriage and kids is overated. Embrace who you are and fuck what anyone else thinks.

Yeah go lick Pussy and ummmm develope a love for Boobs man up!!!

Dont worry about it. Since you are gay tell your family/friends that youve always been and you always will be. If you havent changed and you arent going to change they should never stop loving you! Trust me there is no such thing as a perfect normal life you have to make your own if you are happy with a guy dont change just because you dont want to labled or judged. It is YOUR life do what makes you happy dispite what anyone else thinks

If your friends don't accept you for it then they're shit friends :/ when my gay friend came out to us he said "I understand if you dont' want to be friends anymore.." but instead we were happy for him, and now all of us can talk about cute guys together :P

*were LOL

The gay community has a very strong presence and support system here in SoCal so if this where a local friend I'd say come right out I'll fight off anyone you need me to LOL but i understand your worries family is family and there is never a true "replacement" no matter how much you believe theyll hate you you may not reciprocate their negative feelings. Tough life kid- can you see a counselor or therapist about this- help you deal with the situation a little better. all i can say to help is that nothing worth having will come easy. Usually we suffer to simply get a glimpse of happiness but sometimes that's sufficient to help us keep on fighting!

what is a normal life?
you are who you are, and I bet that as soon as you meet (a guy) you realy like you will change your mind.

hahaha i wish i were gay! life would be so much easyer. I understand men. women are just complicated. There is no reason why being gay means that you cant have a normal life. Just check out this new TV show that my wife watches "The new normal" i think you will see that gays can have the same life as straights but with butt sex.

There must be supports in your area to talk about coming out, how, issues etc.. I think it absolutely horrid that in this day and age people are so ridiculous on accepting gay/lesbian in families and communities. But that said, you are not the first to have faced these issues and you have the benefit of many leaders who have pioneered the way. So you're not alone.

Just be YOU. Seriously, stop trying to change it, you won't be happy.

Hate to say this but if you have a homophobic family then don't come out to them until you have a place of your own and can stand on your own two feet, nothing worse than them over-reacting and you potentially having nowhere to go or everyone being forced to be tense and awkward in the same house until they come to terms with it.
As for your friends, surely there's at least one you could tell who would keep your secret until you're ready? If not, get new friends. A true friend would be there and not judge you (too harshly anyway).
In the meantime, making new friends online or in gay bars or whatever could help you accept that you're gay and it doesn't have to be the end of the world.

Not being aroused by women doesn't necessarily mean that you are gay... You could also be asexual.

Leave town now and go somewhere gay-friendly like San Francisco, New York or Sydney!! You must do this to get away from the bigots. It is easy to make new friends when you're 19 if you make the effort to go out. You're 19 so you are, by definition, attractive. You will be so free and happy. You must do this now. I am very concerned for your well-being. Suicide rates are too high for young gay people your age. Please. GET AWAY NOW!!!

Find a support ground or an online chat room to talk to. It helps, I promise. And remeber that love transends gender and sexuality. Find someone you can love :) guy, girl, black, white, if you truely love them nothing will matter

go to college, no one will care that you are gay, and you can join what ever LGBT club they have to meet some people like you.

Don't make such a big deal of it. I'm 18,openly gay and out to most of my family, and I almost never get shit about it because I'm not feminine, and most people don't know unless I tell them. I just use discretion with people. If you want to tell someone, just observe them for a while and gauge what you think their reaction will be. If you think they're gonna be a dick about it, just don't tell them. And if it's not important that you tell them, don't fucking tell them. It's not as horrible as everyone thinks. I mean, I'm lucky to have an extremely liberal left-wing family, but for the most part just use discretion and find someone who you know will support you before you come out to family/friends.

these labels we or others place on people piss me off. except what is not what aint. i want to be a lunarnaught aint gonna happen. my friend go on the highest roof top and shout I AM A HUMANBEING