Is it normal that i wonder if i'm gay because of my best friend
I have or had a best friend for the past four years. We used to be attached at the hip, talked every day, went out every weekend, and shared so many things. I'm writing because people began thinking my best friend and I were gay. I never thought about it until someone brought it up. We used to cuddle at sleep overs that she would invite me over for constantly. She would massage my back and legs, give me pecks on my cheeks, rubbed my belly, we would spoon and fall asleep doing so and she absolutely adored me. I was obviously very attached and reciprocated everything more so. This was when we were both in college and working part time. She's a few years older than I am and now we hardly talk. We used to mean everything to each other but she started pushing me away. She stopped responding to texts, hardly go out now and when we do it is ackward. Shes become rude and demeaning. When i brought this up she said shes busy with work and needs her own space. when we do see each other she seems irritated and acts like everything is ok. we dont cuddle and stuff anymore since i havent been to her house in some time.I've always been a bit of a tom boy and she used to be as well so now I'm confused I'm not sure if I'm a lesbian and worse I feel like I'm in love with her but she doesn't seem to feel the same and Im not sure she's straight since she initiated our friendship and all the physical stuff. Can my best friend be gay? Am I? Is she pushing me away because she thinks I am ? I really miss her and her affection I've actually cried just thinking about it. Help shed some light.