Is it normal that i wish to die because i am in constant pain?

See if you are eligible to apply for medical marijuana. They say that it is an effective pain killer and it has many other benefits.

Have you spoken honestly to your doc about the severity of your pain & the fact it's making you depressed, to the point of bordering on suicidal thoughts?

I'm guessing you have nerve pain?
Sharp, tingly, burning pain like an extremely intense version of smashing your funny bone?
I know that's the worst pain I've come across, when I slipped a disc in my lower back.
Fucking excruciating & was for a long time but started to slowly improve.

How long have you been in pain for?

Chikungunya virus.

In most of these cases eventually a doctor does find the problem and then managing the pain is possible. I can understand how you feel the way you do, some days my chick V hurts so bad I can't find a comfortable position at all. But at least I know it won't be as bad tomorrow, unlike in your case.
If you aren't sleeping well, then you are not in a fit state to be making decisions of this magnitude. I can only suggest that you keep trying new doctors as it could be the very next one that helps you get through this. Good luck.

You need to lose weight!

That being said (my comment will re-appear later) Do not lose hope. I absolutely know what constant physical pain is like. Until you find THEE doctor that finds, exactly, what is wrong -- keep looking for situations in your lifestyle and body that can explain it; How old are you? When did this start? Do you ever have moments of solace? -- If you're contemplating suicide, I believe "no" answers the last question.

Unless a tumor, or obvious catch for doctors is present, you may deal with this as long as you keep the same "type" of doctors. Physical pain is your bodies warning that something is wrong. Fibromyalgia is a phenomenon that is generally a theory/myth to some, as it is simply explained by patients as constant pain, without physical evidence. Just pain, all over, all the time. Painkillers can exacerbate this; blocking the pain receptors in your brain for so long, in it's absence, your body cannot produce natural morphine any longer and actually creates over-sensitive nerves. Making pain constant and more severe.

Yours is "back", upper. Sometimes stress causes this, sometimes anxiety. Your mind, labor, deficiencies and fibro-like causes can produce this type of pain. Seemingly "nothing wrong" to your Doc. But if you lack a tumor, tear and anything else that shows in an MRI, Docs will assume it's just in your head.

Don't kill yourself, find someone who will really analyze your body thoroughly -- possibly see a chiropractor, in the meantime. You'd be amazed at what a swift back alignment session can produce, in terms of pain relief. If painkillers do not suffice, it's not your nerves. It's something more serious.. that's been ignored for too long.

Suicide due to physical pain. Interesting, as emotional pain is usually the case causing this train of thought/contemplation.

How many doctors have you seen? If it is just one, try finding specialists. They are much more thorough than your average doctor. Some doctors are busy and lackadaisical, so they generalize your symptoms and attempt temporary fixes (ie; painkiller therapy) If an MRI/extensive testing has not been performed, to find a specific problem, you run into costly injections. Most of the time it is simply cortisone shots, or polo-therapy. Again, temporary fixes. You may have something incredibly specific and serious going on with you, since it's so painful and constant.

I've dealt with painful "nerve damage" and fibromyalgia-like pain for years, it is a huge deterrence, when trying to live normally. I understand that misery. Ultimately I've seen a Doctor that had it wrong and wanted to refer me to specialists, more money for their reference and one Doctor that found the problem. You have to see a multitude of doctors, before you find the right one sometimes. As some will miss the mark, leaving you feeling hopeless and remain in pain.

sometimes with unremitting pain (as a last resort) the nerves are cut to the affected area. have you heard of this?

Awwww u remind me of one friend of mine that she suffers from cronic back pain at times, i would offer a world famous shuggy massage but i dont see how find the time unless u paid me cause i work so damn much now.

Other side effects include, vomiting, hating urself, sweating, cursing and accidental pregnancy