Is it normal that i wish my teacher was my mom?

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I'm a high school student who looks up to my teacher. She subbed for my class a while last year, but she's my teacher this year and she's amazing. I don't know when exactly it started but I'm in her classroom about 5 times a day and I'll just talk to her. Sometimes we don't have to talk and it just helps to be around her. I look up to her so much and I'm sad whenever I'm not with her. It's not like a crush thing though. I just wish she was like a big sister or mom to me. Sometimes I get really depressed and I think what if I just breakdown around her, like what would she do? I wish she would take me back to her house to help me calm down and maybe i could spend the night or something. I'm sorry, I know how weird that sounds. Like we would just hang out, you know? And I know that will probably never happen so I get even more sad about it. She'll ask what's wrong in class and I don't know how to phrase it, so I just say I'm tired. She sees right through that and she wants to help, but I don't want to scare her away. I'm a senior and I won't see her next year when I'm away at college and I just don't know how to cope with all of this. I felt really bad one day when we had no school and emailed her saying I was home alone and I didn't feel safe and that I might do something. She knows I self harm. I pretty much asked her if she wanted to hang out. She didn't come to school and did not see the email until the next day. She said if she saw it she would have loved to help but I don't know if she was just saying that. I apologize for how crazy I sound. I promise I'm not.

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  • WhiteStallion
    9 years ago

    You say you don't want to scare her away yet you send her an e-mail which can be creepy for a teacher... It may feel good to relate to and feel comfortable with someone, however instead of obsessing over them, you could try to channel some of those qualities you like into your own character. As she has made an impression on you, simply letting her know you appreciate it at the end of the day is enough. Also bear in mind that many teenagers see leaving school as an opportunity to become independent of such a parental attachment. I'd advise you finding someone to talk to about your problems, such as friend or counselor, which would be less awkward. All the best!

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  • thegypsysailor
    9 years ago

    And if that teacher WAS your mom, then she would have to be a parent and you wouldn't like her anymore. Grow up.

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