Is it normal that i was turned on for this

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So I have been staying at my aunt and uncle's for the week. I have two cousins, one much older and she does not live with them, and my younger cousin he is 13.

I have noticed him before looking at me change before. We also hanged out at their pool and he saw me in a bikini and he had an obvious boner. Nothing odd for a 13 year old, but made me feel a little wierd since its my cousin.

I have other friends in this town and we went out to party. I do not drink regularly and I ended up smoking some weed and drinking and passed out pretty hard around 3am. I have been sleeping in their guest room, next to my cousins room.

I woke up still in a stupor and barely opening my eyes could see my cousin and felt barely able to move. I could then feel my panties were to the side, and he was thrusting into me with his pants down and gasping. I almost half passed out again thinking I was in a dream and then woke back up and he knew. I was so horny I had not had sex in almost a year I let him keep going. He said "sorry sorry" and I did not say no I just kind of moaned subtly giving the OK and let him continue. He took that as an okay to keep going for another 20 seconds, he came inside me, put my panties back, pulled my skirt, then left the room. I touched myself for not even a minute after he left and I came harder than I ever have.

I feel so mixed about this. I felt like I was kind of raped, but honestly I enjoyed it. I had not had sex in so long and his penis although small was extremely hard, harder than any guys I have been with my age.

Am I guilty of anything by letting him continue? If my aunt and uncle found out I would just want the blame to be on him, but I do not want him to be considered a rapist either since I liked it.

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  • edwininthematrix
    7 years ago

    It can be a turn on to feel attractive and wanted and you liked the attention that your younger cousin gave you, that's normal. Even when he gets a girlfriend he will always remember that his first sexual experience was with you.

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  • UNiOtter
    7 years ago

    if you're 1st cousins then yeah its just weird. But that said i too have had feelings for 2 of my cousins but we are not in our teens

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