Is it normal that i want to text my rapist.

She didn't give consent, so it's rape. Do you not know what rape is? It's having sex with someone who wasn't willing to. Going by your logic, it'd be perfectly fine to go into a girl's bedroom as she sleeps and fuck her just as long as she didn't wake up.

Do yourself and every male you ever meet in the future a favour. Print this out and keep a few copies in your purse:

I ________ hereby give permission to ________ to engage in foreplay followed by vaginal intercourse with me ONCE ONLY on ____/____/____ between _____am/pm and _____am/pm and only while wearing a condom. Any further sexual activity of any form is explicitly denied by me until a new permission slip has been signed by both parties.

Signed: ____________ (owner of the vagina). _____________ (owner of the penis).

Then, if some "deviate" touches you in your sleep, you will have every moral and legal right to cry "Rape".

The other advantage is of course no man would be fool enough to go near your precious little vagina after seeing exactly what a nutjob you are, and if they do, they deserve whatever they get. Enjoy spending your life surrounded by cats.

Also I had had sex with him before, am i never allowed to let a partner sleep next to me if I dont want shit done to me while im asleep?

Sorry - I've not logged in in for a while.

I presume you are the OP from your statement, so I will reply as such.

Were you in a relationship with him? Yes - you admitted that.

Were you sleeping in the same bed as him? Yes - you admitted that.

Were you naked? Yes (implied by the fact he was trying to put his penis inside you)

Did your relationship have a sexual component? Yes (implied by the fact you were sleeping naked with him)

So far, 99.99% of reasonable people would be saying "What the hell is your problem?" because in every relationship I know of, it's perfectly normal for BOTH parties to instigate sexual activity if they "woke in the mood" while their partner was asleep. Personally, if my partner wanted sex, I'd much rather be woken up by her rubbing against me sexually than by her shaking me roughly by the shoulders and asking! Further, if you reported this to the police, you'd be laughed at - quite rightly in my opinion, because when you woke and told him it was NOT okay, he stopped. You were not drugged, he didn't pin you down - you woke, and said no and he stopped. His actions were normal, YOU overreacted.

Now for your further points:

Clearly you havn't had anal sex - because the probability of him "gently slipping his dick into your ass" is ZERO. Trust me, you would have woken up - and as you already pointed out - as soon as you said no, he stopped. Not rape. Heck, I get erections when I am asleep (still, and I'm nearly 50) - and I've had partners wake me up and ask me to roll over because I was spooning them and my dick was jabbing them in the ass. I wasn't trying to rape them, I was asleep. Your BF wasn't trying to rape you either - because as soon as you said no, he stopped.

As for the next bit - "Or if he hadn't used a condom", implies he WAS wearing a condom - so again, WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM! You are CLEARLY just having a moan because you are a complete bitch. If he was trying to stick his dick in your vagina and he WASN'T wearing a condom, you might have some grounds for complaint - not of "Rape", but for him being a total tool. You may, with a REALLY good lawyer, even be able to get a charge of "sexual assault" to court - but you probably STILL wouldn't win the case thought UNLESS he got you pregnant, or gave you a disease. Neither of these things occurred (from your story).

YOU chose to sleep naked in the bed with him, presumably after having sex with him at least once that evening. This implies consent, and if you DIDN'T want anything to happen, it was YOUR responsibility to make that perfectly clear beforehand.

12 months later and you are STILL bitching about a boyfriend you were having sex with, and sleeping naked in bed with, who went for a bit of a feel and thought he might wake you in the mood - but STOPPED AS SOON AS YOU MADE IT CLEAR IT WASN'T WANTED - that's just the biggest pile of bullshit I've ever heard!

Get psychiatric help, you are VERY disturbed.

Implied by the "trying to put his penis inside me". Granted, you could be a very heavy sleeper and he could have slipped your pants/panties off, (or at least to the side), but generally speaking, penis in vagina action usually implies a lack of clothing.

Yes I read your post. Personally, I'm in two minds as to whether you are an attention whore who is crying victim to have everyone go "poor you", or just a person carrying around a massive amount of emotional baggage over something. Either way, you need professional help.

So I am a prude because I wasnt ok with being fingered while I slept? Have you heard of consent? He never asked if he could do that.

gulp!!! now im worried lol.

Look, I am totally anti-rape. That said, this is extreme - I mean are we all supposed to sign multi-page contracts listing what we can and can't do before we have sex with someone?

Have you girls ever been in a relationship where your boyfriend (or girlfriend) woke you up gently with a bit of foreplay because they were in the mood? Should everyone (as I said earlier) roughly shake their partner awake to see if maybe the'd be interested?

Where is the balance too - I have been FREQUENTLY woken up by a partner rubbing my penis (either with her hand, or with her body, or even by going down on me) - should I have screamed "Rape"? Hell, my first wife actually got half way through sex with me one night before I woke up (I was really tired) - was I raped? I even said (before going to sleep) I was exhausted and just wanted to sleep. Clearly it MUST have been rape! Oh, but that's right, women can't actually rape men according to you lot, can you...

It is according to the rape fetishests of IIN, apparently.