Is it normal that i want to save someone from me

From a long time ago, I knew I had certain mental problems. I was always interested in human psychology and mostly in my mind. I wanted to find why and how I was different. After a research spanning several years, I reached a conclusion. At first I thought that I had psychopathic tendencies, and though all psychopathic tests on the net told me I was one, I wasn't sure as I thought there were several abnormalies in me that weren't in psychopaths. For example, my intense love of animals.
So I thought I had bipolar disorder, with one side, a good human being, and the other side- a guy at the top of the food chain. I thought that my behaviour worked in tandem with each other, resulting in my exterior behaviour. But with this misdiagnosis, I always wanted ways in which I could take out the inner me and reach my ambitions(P.S. My ambitions are not normal. They are quite huge).
Now coming to me getting to know that I am a psychopath.
Some days back one of my dog died. I felt pain. Yes. But not as much as my family, though I considered my dog to be my most loved individual. And my pain for him went away in 1 or 2 days.
Today, my other dog, was very unwell and my mom was quite worried about her. But I kind of wanted it to die because I felt 3 dogs were too much in our house though it was me who took the stray dog and nursed it to health.

Apart from that I like to have complete power over masses and I have elaborate plans of achieving that. The plans I make aren't dumb and I can plan way ahead compared to normal people (My mother is a decorated IPS officer and I can almost always find flaws in security arrangements that she or her colleagues arrange even after discussions with both lower and superior officers).

I am quite violent. However usually I plan and implement violence on guys who mess with me.
I am thrill seeking and often get into fights just for the adrenaline rush. I love kicking ass of people much stronger than me. I like to improve myself, i.e., gain more knowledge for improving myself to realize my ambition, learn boxing and keeping in shape to kick ass of people much stronger than me and also learning gun shooting(legal) for I will need it later.

I have complete dominant relationship with the opposite sex in my relationships and I realized that (after quite some research and looking at my past behaviours and a very recent one), because of that and my constant power seeking attitude, I break down their self esteem and hurt them a lot. You see, I am giving an example.
I am not much good in mixing with boys., my gender(lol).
But I am quite adept in mingling with girls. But at the beginning of the relationship, I always say that I dont believe in gf-bf relations and that commitment is the reason why heartbreaks and break ups occur. I say that I believe in friend relationships- no categorizing it like friends with benefit etc., and that the people whom I call friends are very few and share much stronger bonds than the normal people. I stress on loyalty, integrity and such. When I gave it a very close thought I realize that I do all these just to gain control of the other person. I could enter multiple relations, but when the other had a bf and I came secondary or wasn't loved more than their bf, I grew desperate although I had several ongoing relations. I destroy their relation and keep her attached to me in a submissive position and when I dont need her I detach her I never thought there was anything wrong in what I did.
Today i see it. But then I don't want to change. I feel that to rise to the top of the food web, I need to be what I am. Uptil here, I gave my symptoms.
Now the crazy thing is, at last I have another friend. All the time I felt I was falling in love, I withdrew myself, and thought that she was just an object to be used and thrown. But I feel people too well, or I can make people open up to me too much. So i know for long that she has a scarred past. I want to love her. But I know I am growing slightly and will grow completely dissatisfied after a time and leave. So I am trying to make her capable to resist me from dominating her any more and resist another heart break. I also told her I was a psychopath and I couldn't change and she had to change her ways. I showed her my symptoms and correlated them with web articles. I don't want and will not change myself but I don't want to hurt her and I am trying a lot in that regard. If I am a psychopath, how is this possible? I lack complete empathy for her most of the time and just use her for sex like some others. But at about 40% of times I want to save her from me. Some days back I even tried indirectly to get her a bf but failed. So just tell me why and how is this possible when I am a psychopath?