Is it normal that i want to murder my father

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If this has been asked 100 ill delete this.
So recently me and my mom were driving down our driveway and we accedently hit our little dog Bella with our car. We also have anouther dog named Chloe. Anyways Bella died and i miss her badly. My mom and dad are divorced so my dad was picking me up from my moms house and Chloe would not stop barking. My dad said ''She should've been the one to die.'' So i told him what he said was rude and he said ''no its not rude yall should teach her to shut up.'' What he said stung me because i still miss Bella and he is reminding me of what happened and he literally said he wants my dog to die.
So earlier this afternoon i was helping him with groceries and so he turned his back and without any thought of doing this whatsoever i turned to him, smiled, and laughed insanely. I didn't even tell myself to do it it was like i was possessed or something.
When im in this kind of mood i can always think of exactly how i'm going to murder and where im going to hide the weapon. I never really care about going to prison or anything as long as i'm getting my revenge. I can always see what im doing as if im actually doing it and sometimes i like to image their blood on my hands.
I've always wanted to kill since i was 15 but i never wanted to kill a family member this badly. My dad already called me dumb once and now he's saying that he wants me to experence the pain of loesing a dog all over again.
thats all i have to say for now if you need any clarifications just ask.

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  • CDmale4fem
    8 years ago

    As we are raised and I, like you, had the divorced parents and to try and figure out who was lieing their ass off to us kids. Growing up many kids are more in tune with the things happening between parents. The arguements, fights, the "almost a bar room brawls", and afterawhile or years of it we can see who is manipulating who. And we just get fed up. So our minds tend to take over telling us this story, if you will, about things would be si much easier without that parent. Now the reality, maybe your dad is not emotionaly able to define and show his love for you and is angry inside at himself if he feels he has made errors in communication, or just hasnt been there for you as much as he feels he should have been. But in reality, dont throw your life away because he cant or wont or doesnt want to communicate in a civil manner. Dont let him win by playing you and your emotions. Talk to a school counselor or teacher you trust or even your mom. I have a nephew who is just like his dad, and my brother is just like our dad was, etc. (He was my stepdad). To tell them they are just like their dad, your asking for an ass kickin, but its the truth. My nephew actually has gotten so mad he told his mom about thoughts like yours. In the 2nd bad boys movie with will smith, wooo saaaw, their way of calming down. They say that like a meditation thing.

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    • DragonCry145
      8 years ago

      well most of the fighting went on with my dad and stepmom. they were happy for like 10 years and then things went to shit. they started doing things without each other and all that jazz. I had a stepsister whom i was very close to and she stopped talking to me. So my father and stepmom got divorced and then a year later got back together again. This lasted for a while before they got divorced again. Then they started dating and breaking up and all this went on for a while and i just got sick of it. When they werent together my dad is saying bad things about her and stuff and it made me want to sew his mouth shut. But when they were together he was always saying good things about her and i was just fucking done. I think all of this just made me question everyone and everything.

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      • CDmale4fem
        8 years ago

        The lies, manipulation, talking about them when the SO is not around, but when SO is around, they want to make everyone around them think "they are doing so well, that couples therapy must really work". Yea right, Its all for show, "dont dare let the neighbors know I got laid off or fired, the house in foreclosure, the wife is wanting divorce, and of all the shit, my dog is pregnant, my dog- fred." People get so hung up on "status, position, and the real obvious way they cant be discrete and cannot fiñd a way, no matter how hard they try not to, they are judgmental:: pricks taking any shot they can in an attempt to be able to "one up" everone in there social circle.

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  • flyingnostalgia
    8 years ago

    Over a dog you want to kill your father..so you see your father worst off then the dog. Bitch please

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  • rjohnson483
    7 years ago

    You have the same feelings as I do. I never really have to sit there and think when I'm "in the zone". The ideas just come to me, I tell myself prison isn't worth it, but the thoughts still remain. I just remind myself that when he's old and decrepit I get to choose how he's taken care of. All I have to do is put him the worst home possible.

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  • Ice78
    7 years ago

    The first post here that bought tears to my eyes..

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  • yellowshu4
    8 years ago

    I feel the same about people in general to be honest, so I know how you feel, but you should probably try to get some help

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  • Lonely2
    8 years ago

    You have a lot of anger against him

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  • noid
    8 years ago

    No

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