Is it normal that i want to kill this girl?
There is a girl that I hate. I hate her because she did something incredibly rude to me. I want to kill her.
We are coworkers, and one day I just tried to talk to her while we were both on break. I am very shy, and have poor social skills, and thus am not good at coming across the way "normal" people do. I am not good at interpreting facial expressions and body language, and I often cannot tell when people are being serious or not either, so it is usually very difficult for me to talk to people and make friends (a psychiatrist that I used to see diagnosed me with "Asperger's syndrome"). As far as I could tell, she did not seem nervous or intimidated by me while we were talking (which was a brief period of time). I don't remember what I said, but I was just trying to make idle conversation so that I had an excuse to be close to her, as she is very attractive. However, I was later called into the manager's office because the girl had reported that I was "stalking" and "staring at" her. I had done no such thing. I ended up not getting into any serious trouble, but I was extremely angry.
This was several months ago, and I have fantasized about murdering this girl every single day since then. I want to break into her house, wait for her to come home, tie her up, and slowly torture her to death with knives and a blowtorch. I probably won't, but I think about it alot.