Is it normal that i want to kill?

I'm going to get a thousand thumbs down for this, but...

...a killer instinct is part of the human psyche - and those who don't realize it, aren't in touch with their subconscious mind.

Now, no one should ACT on said instinct. But we are wired for violence, on a very fundamental level.

You're not normal. Al Murray "the pub landlord" said so. Then again he was referring to all the French. In relation to your murderous feelings I believe that when life is bad we all get a bit that way, hell I’ve thought of committing crimes just to go to prison thinking it might be restful in my worst moments, but get real if you were really gonna kill someone you wouldn't post it on a website psychopaths are meant to be smart.

I'm experiencing this too, though not as severely as you are. I recommend going to a therapist. Wish you the best!

Hi, I'm Patricia. I don't know if you still check this post but I'm gonna say what I have to say anyways. Believe it or not I stumbled upon your post because I also have the same question. I've wanted to kill someone before. But let's go back to your question. The fact that you laugh or feel amused when someone is getting tortured or killed is normal...I mean I think it is. I do it too. I really love watching videos (real genuine videos) of people getting killed and tortured. But on the contrary, I feel bad and feel that they don't deserve it. As for you, I can see that it's not the same. And also because you mentioned of how you can't feel emotions and that you love to lie. That you don't know what compassion feels like. And that you're not able to develop relationships with anyone. That's not normal. I really DO suggest you get help. Before you do something you regret.

You're not alone. There are other people like you out there.

:)

Just go and kill someone. I agree with your story entirely.

Yes is normal do it!!

I think you and i would be a good mass murder team because you just described me. Except the French part, I think I just looked in a mirror.

The 52% people who think that this is normal, i would like to suggest you to go kill yourself, that would be fun for you and also, you won't be hurting somebody else which is the plus side. now, despite of the fact that you do deserve to die, i am not a sadistc person as you are, so i would say that you better visit a hospital or ask some of your friend to lock you in some deserted place where doors will be locked from outside, fancy that you are in The Maze Runner and take a lot of books with you there.
But you don't give a rat's ass because you are hell bent on killing, should not have wasted my time, go die, anyhow. They say, To protect the innocent, we need more guns in the hand of the innocent but god forbid, if one of the twisted souls like the ones i have seen here, get one, they will go on a rampage and kill an entire population for they think it is fun.
Doesn't matter if you are as horrid as Albert Fish or as screwed up as Ed Gein, there will be a time when somebody will hunt you down and they will peel your skin, break your bones, twist your muscles and drink your blood while they amputate your body, repulsive, eh?(not talking to cannibals in the house) so, better get your fucked up mind on the right track, you can not even begin to imagine the kind of pain you will be subjected to then, if you have a shred of humanity, forget humanity, even if you have got two eyes, a nose, 2 legs, 2 hands and look slightly like humans, then please enroll yourself into an institute for the mentally ill, we have seen enough wars, killings, beheading,rapes, let everybody leave in peace and live in peace with yourself.

It is pretty normal, especially these days, to want to kill and to be amused by watching people get killed in TV and movies.

A couple of things you can do to see if there's actually a killer inside of you, or if you're just a serious horror buff (doesn't necessarily mean you like horror movies just don't know the right word)

1) Did you light fires on a FREQUENT basis as a child?

2) Did you kill and torture animals on more than a few occasions, at separate ages?

3) Can you watch REAL murder videos? ie: The al qaeda beheading video, the Russian soldier getting his throat cut off of his body. Basically any other video on the internet that has REAL murder going on.

FYI: Real murder is COMPLETELY different from the shit you see in movies. Movies are MADE to be entertaining, and that includes the murders. If you watch real murder videos, and enjoy them, as well as the first two steps, then maybe you have a killer inside you. I used to think the same thing about myself. I even had a point in life that I thought I was DESTINED to be the worlds greatest serial killer. But the older you get, the more you realize how ridiculous and overall pointless it is. I will say though, there are still people that I want to kill, but they are people who deserve it (murderers, rapists, and most importantly CHILD MOLESTERS) I could kill them and feel absolutely no guilt.

I think your best bet, if you're seriously considering killing someone, is seeing a psychologist or psychiatrist as soon as possible. Because the fact that you posted this from your computer, means you already fucked any chance you have of actually doing it.

PS: The FBI often go after serial killers, and they can access computer databases, unlike local police forces.

I think you need to stop watching Dexter and thinking "Gee, Dexter is so cool! He's as empty as a box of donuts and doesn't afraid of ANYTHING!"

Thats messed up. You need to speak to a pyschiatrist. Right away! And forget about the feelings you would feel after killing someone, think about how the victim feels having their lives taken away from them, and think of how their family and friends will feel. Pretty fucking horrible!!!! How would you feel if someone you loved was killed from some jerk who just did it because they, "always wanted to know what it would feel like to do it"? Nobody deserves to be murdered.

And you say, "I know it's illegal to murder, I'm not that stupid." Yet, you're that stupid to post it on the internet. It can be traced, you know?

Something like this, is really serious. Get help! If you don't, you're gonna ruin your life, along with somebody else's.

You should try talking to a psychiatrist. Urges to kill are definitely not normal. It's not worth spending the rest of your life in prison for murdering someone. It's really important that you get mental help as soon as possible, because people's lives are at danger, and you don't want to know the regret you will have and how heavy and guilty your conscience will be if you kill someone. Best of luck.

hmmm, so terribly textbook psychopath. One wonders about the sincerity of such a claim. However, you appear to seek advice, confirmation of peers and possibly help? It has been noted that the true psychopath has no possible redemption and only arms himself (true ones are only males) with knowledge of how others empathize. Could it be an attempt at advertising like Armin Meiwes, but subtle so as not to form legal ramifications? Or a narcissist seeking help? or Fake? If you are truly seeking help, maybe you ought to do exactly that and see a psychiatrist; as this, you have probably already worked out, is definitely not normal, or else we would all be dead.

sure i suppose he could get help but that would be near hypocrytical, its completly fine to enjoy pain suffering there is no shame in being sadistical,since we first became a species we fought the only reason that there are laws in place now is because someone realzed that if someone died it could get in the way of thier own personal gain, think or fantasize about it all you want just dont act on it, because society will ridicule and anything you feel will be taken and assimilated into the ideal of behavior.

For your relief you are not the first to feel that way. Its called being a sociopath now described as someone with antisocial personality disorder.
you should get help before you do something ver bad.

It's seen as mental disorder by traditional psychiatric practice.
Don't remember the right terminology right now.
It used to happen to me.While watching movies.
Then when I actually got a chance to kill somebody,I figured out I just couldn't do it.
Fear of consequences stopped me.
I would tell you to seek help,but I wouldn't do it myself,so,I don't really feel like telling you to.
You could become one of those good serial killers who only kill other serial killers!
If you wanna kill somebody you might wanna get into something your own size.Otherwise you are just a coward and a pussy.Not to mention a copycat.Beware of the electric chair and don't let the lethal injection go straight to your head.oh.And hope you don't kill somebody with connections or you are so gonna be doomed.
DOOMED I TELLS YA!

Psychosis normally involves having no social/empathic boundaries. Knowing this shit is wrong is a good way of knowing you're quite sane. Sometimes I feel the need to punch someone in their stupid face for no reason. I shouldn't worry because you know you're not going to do it!

hey. i know how you feel. click on my profile name and read my story. i think we are similar.

I'm not saying that I AM a psychopath. I'm not a doctor, a shrink or whatever, but I don't really think I am a psychopath for the same reason you said - I haven't always been like this.

For informations : I had talked to my parents about that, then I met a doctor. He tested me and I have hypothyroidism that might cause apathism (because of the low level of thyroid hormone). That's all I am - apathetic.
So I'm on medication and... that's all.

I've been taking my treatment since two weeks now. According to my doctor, I'm supposed to get better in a few months.
So this, could explain why I feel "empty". However for the desire of killing someone, I don't know. Whatever. I don't care. Must be curiosity.

To sum up, I'm not abnormal, I'm sick.

A good thing for u would be to try hinting!!! I'm serious, try it. Find a guide or somethin!!

Dude meds and maybe check yourself into the hospital NOW

Please try therapy !!!!!

^^Yeah, I agree with that. You are a possible sociopath and you are one of my biggest interests. Dexter deals with his problems. Maybe not in the best way possible but he does get by. I'm not saying be a vigilante killer but you can relate to him. He has a set of morals and you should probably do you best to adopt some that keep you from hurting innocent people. You have a problem, and your responsible for it because you know about it. The electric chair, prison, or being killed by a crazed victim of yours are what lie in store for you unless you follow some sort of code.

The best advice I can offer is to watch this television show called "Dexter"... the main character is pretty much suffering from the same thing as you so maybe you can get some release of your feelings from this show without actually doing anything.

If I was french I'd want to kill people too.

seek therapy before you land in jail for life. since you don't understand compassion, just think about how you probably wouldn't want anyone to take your life, and that's how another person would feel too - maybe that's graspable, I don't know. next, please tell me what area you live in so i can avoid it. thanks.

Hmmmm.. Well you seem to have some real issues, possible sociopath from your love of lying and lack of compassion.
Other than your "need to kill" embrace these qualitys, they can get you far in life.

As for your urges, seek therapy my friend.
I think about killing people too but not in a serious way.
And people dying/tortured in movies always brings a giggle to the back of my mind but i wouldnt ever seriously contemplate killing someone for no reason other than an "urge to kill".
Seriously check yourself into a psych ward and have them evaluate you.

Not normal.

Bullshit. A true psycopath knows what compassion is supposed to be he simply cannot experience it himself. Also psycopathy is a defect you would have no standard of "happy and content" by which to realize that you dealt empty. While you might want to kill someone the very fact that you laugh at something (albeit perverse and horrible) suggests that you are probably just a teenager with too much time on his hands who read the definition of a psycopath off of wikipedia. Find someplace else attention whore.