Is it normal that i want to hurt people?
I constantly have fantasies of torturing and killing people. Like thoughts of taking an innocent family and torturing the children to death in front of their parents. It gives me such a rush to think about, but there is no sexual gratification at all. I am an emotionally cold person and I don't care when my family or friends are in pain. I am pretty much emotionally dead. I am not depressed, nor am I happy and I don't want to be either. I don't ever feel anything like joy, worry, excitement or disappontment. I only ever feel bored. I don't ever want things other than drugs and hurting people. When I am having a day that isn't great I want heroin or painkillers. When I am having a better day, all I want to do is cut somone into pieces while they are alive and listen to their screams. Is this normal?