Is it normal that i want to have sexual fun with my cleaning woman?
Okay so this is the best way I can explain this. We've had the same cleaning woman in our home for easily the past 14-15 years. She's Brazilian, married, grown kids (one of whom has a kid as of recently) and very pretty.
I started having these sexual feelings towards her years ago more so when it was just her and myself alone in the house. I live at home with my mom, dad and a sister (just fyi).
Anyway, sometimes when I would be on the couch near where she was cleaning I would rub my crotch and sometimes pull out my c**k in certain situations. I was pretty discrete and not completely obvious about it and it appears that she doesn't really notice.
In all honesty, I really don't necessarily want to have sex with her, but I more so want her to be aware of it and sort of embrace it… what I mean is I would love for her to sit down next to me and watch me masturbate until I ejaculate and let her clean me up or something. Although, I wouldn't mind her rubbing my c**k for me.
I guess what I'm asking is, is it normal to have these feelings AND most importantly should I act on these feelings?
The biggest thing holding me back is that if I make it obvious that I want her to see and she screams and says something to my family which would be incredibly awkward and I wouldn't even know how to face them.
So if anyone out there has any suggestions for me on what to do or if it it's normal, I'm all ears.