Is it normal that i want to dress up like a man but i'm not a lesbian?
This is a bit complicated, but basically the problem is that I have a vagina, and I do not feel like I should have a vagina. The only reason why I don't really want to get a sex operation and become a guy is because I like men. Essentially, I have the mind of a gay man.
I've had minor problems with my gender since I was young, but now it's getting kind of out of hand now. I feel terrible when people refer to me with female pronouns or when they say my name out loud, because it's a female name(it's not Ellen, by the way, I'm not stupid enough to use my real name on the Internet).
My friends often call me a girl and put a lot of emphasis on that because they know it annoys me. For them, it's only a small harmless thing, but they don't understand that it actually bothers me a lot. I never told them it was that big of a deal because I also have problems with expressing my feelings.
Sometimes I just want to cut my breasts off with a knife. I've thought about doing it a lot in the last few years, but I won't do it because there's a chance I might bleed to death and, well, I don't want that.
I know a lot of lesbian women want to become men, and I understand that, but I've never heard of a straight woman wanting to be a man, at least not in the way I do.
I know this is kind of a long post, I'm sorry. Also, forgive me for any grammatical mistakes I made, English is not my native language.