Is it normal that i want to do this for my friends?
I had 2 close friends growing up. I made a lot of mistakes including one that I'll regret forever: growing distant with no means of communicating with them. I also (in-voluntarily) moved to another place while I was a teenager. Because I may never see them again, I plan on having a baby and naming it after both of them (he/she will have one of their first names as well as one of their surnames).
Though it might be selfish, I want to do it as one last favor to them as I may never see them again (That and I just want to be a mother). I feel as if I can undo all the wrongs I've made to them by raising a baby lovingly in their memories.
I believe that by doing this in the future, I can finally forgive myself and I can die in peace with no further regrets.