Is it normal that i want to do this?

The only orgasm I have ever had has come from clitoral stimulation, I can get horny from vaginal penetration, but never cum. I want to be so cruel to myself; my plan is to sit at the end of my bed with a dildo inside me and some very tight knickers to hold it in. Then I’m going to put my legs through the bars at the end of the bed, wrap a chain around my middle and the bars and padlock it in place, nice and tight. Now I’m stuck there until I can get the key, which by the way is frozen into a cube of ice, it will be a good couple of hours before that will melt. Then I’m going to take some nipple clamps connected with a chain, I’m going to let the clamps bite my nipples as hard as possible and put the chain through the middle of the bars that I’m facing. Now to get free not only do I need the keys but I need to remove these clamps. Next a large ball gag will be locked into my mouth, not that it needs the padlock; the ball is so big I can’t get it out of my mouth without my hands. Last of all I will take a pair of handcuffs and lock my hands behind my back.

Now as I’m sure you can imagine I’m trapped and horny as hell, all I can do is sit here and wait for the ice to melt, or of course I can try and ride that dildo inside me. Maybe this whole set up will be enough to tip me over the edge.

I haven’t done any of this yet? What do you guys thinks?