Is it normal that i want to die from the bubonic plague?
I know it's not around much anymore but I honestly want to contract it and die from that when I'm in my 40s or 50s. I want to die from the Bubonic Plague because I don't want to die from old age and I don't want to resort to suicide just so I won't die old. As bad as it may seem, there's nothing wrong with suicide I just want to die from the Bubonic Plague instead because I can make my death look more unintentional than tentional. That and my method of wanting to off myself could fail and I'd be locked up for the rest of my life under Suicide Watch. No, I'm not depressed (I'm actually happy with my life) and there's nothing wrong with wanting to die before old age (Why should I allow myself to slowly deteriorate in my 60s+ and become completely helpless stuck in a nursing home?). Why the Bubonic plague? Because if I'm going to die of an illness, it might as well be a horrible, very fatal one and I think that me dying from the Bubonic plague would be the best way for me to go. I can assure you that this is in no way, shape, or form a troll post and I am being completely serious.