Is it normal that i want to die but not have to commit suicude?

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I want something bad to happen to me like a car crash or shooting so that I die, but I don't want to commit suicide because I could never bring myself to do that and by me killing myself I feel like I would let my family down so I always hope when I'm in a car it will crash so I can just have an excuse for my death so I don't have to go on anymore.

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Based on 95 votes (74 yes)
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  • Darkoil
    11 years ago

    I feel the exact same and I was actually thinking about this yesterday.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    I don't think you want to die. You merely want your problems to come to an end.

    Giving advice though over the internet is always treacherous as there's rarely enough context to be of even the slightest help.

    Go see a professional. And God speed to you.

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  • Matt2222
    11 years ago

    Ya I've thought about this off and on since I was 11

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  • ucipher8
    11 years ago

    yeah, me too. why didn't the world end this december?

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  • Gravy
    11 years ago

    Aaahhh just had an epiphany. Donate both your kidneys, save 2 lives. Job's done, close this thread out.

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  • SuperBenzid
    11 years ago

    I can see that but ideally I would like to go out a hero. Then my family might be less sad.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    so walk somewhere with your eyes closed then you wont know you are commiting suicide.

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  • BrendioEEE
    11 years ago

    The people who votes normal are anything but...wanting to die is never normal unless your in extreme physical pain.

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    • ConfusedKitten
      11 years ago

      Maybe I am in eextreme physical pain, thank you very much. And just because you don't feel this way does not give you the right to be rude to the many people who do.

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      • BrendioEEE
        11 years ago

        oh wow rude ? seriously ? I was not rude in any way. Its a fact. Suicidal thoughts are NOT normal. I have a friend in the medical field that can confirm this.

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      • Atussa
        8 years ago

        Hi ConfusedKitten sorry for the presumption but the things you've written really resonate with what ive felt before and i wanna say I'm here if u need an impartial ear and that the more you talk about the pain when it hits, be it to the samaritans(who r 24/7,confidential and saved my life) or imalive(dot)org, Crisischat both of which u can textchat online, the more the pain and anxiety lessens. You can move past this but you don't have to fight alone, lean on others and the stronger and happier you become. I'm here, keep talking you can beat this

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  • Atussa
    8 years ago

    Hi sorry for the presumption but the things you've written really resonate with what ive felt before and i wanna say I'm here if u need an impartial ear+that the more you talk about the pain when it hits, be it to the samaritans(who r 24/7,confidential and saved my life) or imalive(dot)org, Crisischat both of which u can textchat online, the more the pain and anxiety lessens. You can move past this but you don't have to fight alone, lean on others and the stronger and happier you bcome. I'm here, keep breathing, keep talking you can beat this

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  • amanda_
    11 years ago

    Yes i think its normal. i always feel this way!

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  • SangoNyappy
    11 years ago

    Same here. I want to die but I don't my family and friends to think it's their fault or feel bad by commiting suicide.

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  • musiciswithinmysoul
    11 years ago

    well, that's life for you.

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  • Sbfteacher
    11 years ago

    If your thinking about this then more than likly you want to die but dont want the embarrassment of commiting suicide talk to a pastor school conselor parents or something get some help trust me i was close to killing myself when i was younger but i didnt and i live an amazing life today if you want to talk email me at [email protected]

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  • tacotuesday
    11 years ago

    i wouldn't say its normal but i know exactly how you feel. Im pretty much the same all I wanna do is die but I know that if i commit suicide my family wouldnt cope, that is every mothers nightmare. So I just want to die accidentally so it wouldn't be so hard on them.

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  • Gravy
    11 years ago

    I agree, sign up to the military. Volunteer for UXO training and in to war. People on tour until you get done by an IED. If you die, you're a hero, if you live you're a hero and there bloody of work out their clearing old was zones when you retire from the military. Even in you wait that long, you could get lucky and step on a land mine.
    Anyway, good luck dying a hero.

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  • Tankz4LifeDawg
    11 years ago

    Go to war! you'll die a hero :)

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  • justsomekidfromcanada
    11 years ago

    Why do you want to die?

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  • thinkingaboutit
    11 years ago

    oh. You want to be that guy that got shot execution style while walking down the street texting? Yeah, you say you do, but do you really?

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    • ucipher8
      11 years ago

      my family could get over that better than if i killed myself

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      • thinkingaboutit
        11 years ago

        No, they couldn't. What you want to kill is not yourself, but the pain inside. The pain that hurts so much that you can't even dare think about it.

        focus on killing the pain. life is hard, okay? for everyone. it's fucking hard. the fact that your sitting typing in front of a computer your means that life could have been a 1000x more difficult, hopeless, aimless, desperate,etc. People just have to power through no matter what. You can do it because everyone can do it.

        Watch this movie: Lilya 4-ever. When I was feeling suicidal, this movie helped me appreciate my life. Before age 6, I basically had no parents and was living in the poorest European country. Had my mentally unstable and unfit mother not come back, and financed my voyage to america (the greatest, and only maternal act she's given), I would have probably (without a doubt) been a prostitute, like so many other eastern European girls. You really have to appreciate what you have. Health. Livelihood. Talents. Intelligence. Spouse. Friends and family.

        Also watch: Mary and Max. this movie will generally help you see that most peoples' lives are quite average and painful. You may think everyone is a Rihanna (they pretend to be), but they are really the Earl who got bullied by some classmates, ridiculed by his parents, lacked good guidance and therefore self confidence; Earl who knows life can be good, but has made so many mistakes along the way: can he ever be happy?

        There are two kinds of people out there:

        1) people who are mostly negative and rarely positive
        2) people who are mostly positive and rarely negative

        which one are you going to be

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  • Unrelentingtorrentofbacon
    11 years ago

    Yes. It is normal to be a complete wuss.

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    • ConfusedKitten
      11 years ago

      When I posted this I wasnt looking for people to be rude, I was looking for help. Everyone who is rude is making me feel worse. If you can't be accepting of how I feel don't comment. It's a waste of your time and mine. Thank you.

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